I wan to...

2010-05-29T18:44:00.002+08:00

You're happy.
You're smiling.
I sometimes wonder
If it ever hurt you at all.
Unless it's all a facade?

脆弱

2010-05-20T00:12:00.002+08:00

我至今才发现，原来自己是那么的弱。
恨死自己去你的搏克
不知为什么自己会这样愚蠢
对不起了自己):

So i'm supposed to say hi?

2010-05-08T01:26:00.002+08:00

idk why i suddenly feel like blogging at this hour well but ya suddenly gt tat urge to... Maybe coz it's the stress of midyears, maybe it's coz my life has stress unwittingly added on by me:o. Life's trying to let me get used to it but i...haiz):...just can't wait for the exams to end and to nt screw up... Just tell myself...:o
Wat do u hav exactly
That takes my attention
And steal my feelings away?
Hahaha(:

Thanks guys(:

2010-02-05T21:10:00.015+08:00

"I'm walking on this lonely road, but I don't mind at all"(:

East zone's over. We got last place again. However, is that what we really deserve? I don't think so, but what's done can't be undone. There are many fingers we can point as to why we lost or there can be many factors why we can't win, however does it matter now? This experience has definitely been fun, maybe enriching and in the first match, dramatic. Why only the first match? Coz it's the only match where every one of us all put in 100%. To say it's exciting is an understatement for that match as it was a rollercoaster match all the way till the end.

That match killed our spirits, and of course that match affected us for the whole zonals. Mentally, there was the "we-are-gonna-be-out spirit." Who dares to deny that? However, I'm proud of you guys for giving your best in every match still.

HAHA wat was i doing by typing that paragraph and still reading it over and over again? lol nvm... life goes by really quickly. Haiz i think time really flies i think i'm going to go gaga sooner or later :o just hope i dun get too irritated too easily>.<

To B div'09/10:

i'm proud of all of us and happy that this is where i learnt to play as a team(: good luck too all you ppl in jc volley for the sec 4s and for the sec 3s work harder and jy for next year(:

Sec 4s

Tsz Hin

You've been a real nice guy, helping me out on the many aspects of volleyball. Somehow i still feel that all those memories will be something we all can treasure and laugh about next time. Knowing you the longest, I definitely still do not know what or why you would think of something sometimes, but I know that you do give yr best in everything. Thanks cap for being a nice friend, a listening buddy and a gling captain:)

Shao Hong

Gee, I must thank you a lot I guess. Even though I never really knew you till last year somewhere near the end of the year, I would never have seen yr dedication in volleyball and training someone so much to that extent as you have trained me. Thanks a lot. I'm still learning, and so should you(: Good luck in volleyball in yr dream vjc.

Kah Yong

Hmm we dun really communicate much in volleyball sense do we? Hahaha(: it's usually got more to do with the emotional aspect as we keep having those long talks where we would talk about anything under the sun. I hope we can land in the same junior college and continue that coz it would be really nice:) We aren't the closest of friends but yet the no of secrets we know of each other are somehow equivalent to being that. Never falling into the same class as you has played a huge part in that i guess as we can never have quarrels too long yet closeness too tight. Jy in jc volleyball if you still wan to go(:

Kevin

Haha another buddy from sec 1-4. I still rmb, we used to be enemies at the start right? Hmm somehow that has fostered into a friendship(: thanks for the bus rides home and going to tuitions together. Next year, it will be harder for all of us to be the same way liao lol(: Currently, I think you are going through what i'm going through. So it ain't too bad right? At least we can always laugh it off and emo together(: Jy in jc volleyball coz I know that's where you are aiming for(: anyway, ps abt it, i just wanted to watch law by law hahaha(:

Timothy

Inspiring? That would be the nicest word I can think of for you(: hmm but in truth, you do inspire me a lot, with all yr gl comments and yr short time spent with me playing in the same positions. We do take a lot of tips from each other right? Alright mostly is i take from you when you had to be the "senior" in the zhu gong position. Jy in jc volleyball i bet you are going there too right? hahaha(: continue bringing the laughter and diao faces from our team:)

Zheng Kai

One of the loudest players on the court and yet the quietest off court eh? hahaha(: let me think... it's really nice to be with you luh and you are one of the most encouraging players to be on the court with(: jy in getting to vjc and do well in yr violin performance k? hahaha let's go act china some other day (:

I won't be updating in a long while until i feel like it i guess(: all the best to myself for x-country and of coz to keep my promise to you.(:

A brand new beginning

2010-01-30T23:07:00.002+08:00

I believe I can do it, and i shall try my best to achieve everything I have set out to do. Proving Mr Zaid wrong, forgetting her completely and doing myself proud. It's definitely possible.

sorry ppl updating properly after east zone's completely over.(:

2010's finally here(:

2010-01-02T01:21:00.008+08:00

what if i told u i still love you?
"Speechless...why i'm still holding on to this string"

Hapy new year ppl lol(: i'm nt gonna blog very often liao coz i guess i just have too many events coming up:o

FIRST UP
This year's my last year i think i'm going into vball already. Though i have only been in the team lesser than my other teammates, the time i spent there was definitely memorable(: thank you guys for making me realise what a true team means. From the gledness to the encouragements...I appreciate them all. Hope to see us all smiling tat bright when the competition's over. :)

Secondly,
This year is also my final year in secondary school. Once I leave this place, there's no saying of me being an innocent guy anymore. I have grown much in there, both emotionally, physically and definitely mentally. Though I won't say I have the clearest state of mind now, I do hope by the time the final exams arrive, I will be all smiles once this year reaches the end.

Lastly,

thank you for making the last part of 2009 such a memorable part that i will find it hard to forget. The pain might go away someday but i won't regret those times i spent with you. Good luck for 2010 and may you find someone better than me someday.

Coz it's the start of 2010
and i've gotta learn to let go.
In order to stand up
i've to fall first.
I won't forget you
and nvr will.

2009-12-16T21:37:00.004+08:00

I will walk this path alone for now under the wet weather . Saying sorry just makes me more hurt than ever...

"In the wet weather, it's not the test of time, but the test of wettest"

I'm still walking around

trying to be strong(:

but somewhere inside my heart

that part of me has just died

2009-12-11T00:34:00.000+08:00

just a reflection all along...

2009-12-04T23:30:00.002+08:00

it's tiring:o but it's the test of time i guess(: "The sun's just so near yet i'm too far"

When did I last blog? Eons ago i guess. So many things have happened this hols that it doesn't feel like one at all. I'm just tired...

HOWEVER,

things have started picking up. I can't believe how 2 ppl forced the life out of me and 1 was my listening ear. I'm just glad that I have such ppl around me(: thanks guys.

Ever since u got the iphone

things' changed

You are no longer the dad i used to know

the friendly jovial smiles

wasted away by you burying yr screen in tat stupid phone

haizzzz

2009-11-22T09:33:00.005+08:00

"sometimes love just needs 2 ppl with opposite traits to attract like a magnet"

lol i'm back from my china trip in suzhou(: oveall, it has been fun with some rlly gd learning experiences but it's still some emoing from me lol. Nvr had the feel in blogging for a rlly long time zzz idk why too haha, Life's been great except for now i need to rush through the holiday hw. i don't need u to determine the way i choose how i sms ppl zzz...even when that person's right in front of me...
Note to self:
1)try to update yr this dead blog
2)finish chem project by 20th dec(edit by 25th)
3)do ss hw
4)volley...(1st ball? ahhhh)
5)try to read yr a sense of belonging
6)return mr zaid his book
7)watch my words....
8)complete the rest of the hols hw

life's gonna be so boring
now that u are going
to be busy
but i'll stay strong
just coz of you(:

good luck to all the larries(: will miss all u guys haha=)

Coz it just grows on me day by day(:

2009-10-25T22:18:00.002+08:00

it was fun(: "I have been trying to go up too long that the top still looks...unreachable"

Debrief's ended. Week 10 extension week abt to start. There's still the 70 rounds around the lake. I'm sitting here wondering when will the stress stop piling. Maybe a less stressed life is needed i dun care.

On The Other Hand,...

life's getting more pleasant by the day(: those few hours were definitely well spent. I think I have learnt to take things positively. Maybe a negative life was nvr even needed in the 1st place. As I sit here looking at the amaths tb, i feel a sense of joy doing it.coz of you(:

We may have lost

but i am definitely

proud of each and every one of the team members

who contributed to this tournament

of course nvr forgetting

our fans(:

2009-10-20T21:09:00.003+08:00

thanks for monday:)

"I can be the umbrella and u be the one carrying it(:"

Back after soccer interclass and rotting for a while(: . Match was fun though kinda rough hahaha but most impt thing is WE WON LEH:) hahaha though it was kinda tensed up we still won it thanks to super sub and our pro javier(: thurs against rp... dun wanna be too arrogant... let's keep a cool head and then win the next one:)

Howvever, before tat was zzz... I was kinda pissed with tammie ho. I spent so long doing the bloody proposal and she rejected it straight on the spot saying there's a lack of idea this's nt the way to do a proposal and stuff like tat. Ahh i do so long then she said these kinda hurtful things sianz.

I wish everyday was like monday
where there would be no troubles
and it was only me and you
the few hours of my life
was definitely well worth it(:

2009-10-17T12:39:00.003+08:00

ily(: "coz life's just like a screwed up broken cassette tape, but love still exists there(:"
lol exam's finally over. This exam has been stressed both physically and emotionally. I basically fell apart in the subjects which I had aimed to score well haiz... now only can hope for the best liao lo... hmm i shan't emo i shan't emo coz well...life's beautiful!!!(: ok this is totally nt my way of typing at all... i also dunno wat to type liao so k bye off to go entertain myself with pathethic fb games(:
thanks for the blogskin(:it's sweet.
this's the last chance
and tues's the day
it's impt
but some fail to realise the importance still...
haiz wat can i say? nothing...

2009-10-14T00:33:00.003+08:00

thanks for everything(:

"It's time to look on and move forward to a much brighter horizon coz life is always moving"

Here's a short post. I swear i am gonna make up for tonight. Never studied chem at all... ok la maybe a bit but still only 1 chapter is nt enough. Gonna mug hard later wish me luck ppl(: love you alwys and always(:

after the exan

the final chance

it's a make or break

to see my wish come true

to haters who do not like me

screw u>:(

i can see that

talking behind my back's just a small matter

hmm ya can see that

very well indeed

2009-09-20T11:18:00.002+08:00

The only reason that's stopping me from just telling you those 3 words is my inability to forget her. "There's just too many unknown things, funny things and surprising things that...it doesn't shock you when it happens"

taking a break from studying... life's been really stressful... gt suanned gt mocked gt daoed gt irritated gt frustrated gt stressed. all my emotions happening in one week. It's just a fastforwarded incident of everything tat's happened over the past week tat gt me so irrititated. Tat shows how much 1 week of no volley can do. Zzz... off to mug again/ play fb games just to cure boredom(:

I have tried making myself clear

to seperate my mind from my heart

i wan to tell u everything

but the obstacles are... just too many

the only thing i can ever do

is to smile in front of you...

2009-09-06T21:25:00.002+08:00

"It's just coz you are so near that you are impossible to reach"

Back after the last week of the term. Now is the time to start on hols hw liao. Honestly, they are piling up like we have 1 month to spare. Bet things are really gonna get heated up during term 4 when the eoys are finally here. final chance for me to do well. for my last chance to hav a hope of dsa next year.

Life's boring. Volley's gonna end soon for abt 1 month plus. Studies are going to get really stressed up. Idk wat to do abt all this.i can't believe i am still seaching for tat missing light.

Is it it even possible to spend so much time

with you like this

by just remaining friends?

2009-08-31T22:59:00.002+08:00

i think i'm loving you:o

"Which is better? To see the end of something or to see the beginning slowly unfold?"

Teacher's day celebration at school today. After tat went to meet 6k ppl except for ester and hx( who pang-sehed us:( ) . Later went to eat lunch and then gt back to mbs after much contemplation by me to go elsewhere hehehe:).

Reached mbs and saw some other 6k ppl lol. Fine with tat hahaha but somehow i felt guilty coz i was cold to them unlike other ppl when i got super high when i saw them. Guess the emotiones back then still exist in me today somehow. After seeing the teachers, got home, slept, tuitioned, blogged. Life's tat simple right?If only...

They say tat knowledge has no boundaries

i finally understood why

it's coz when we reach a certain point

giving up is not an option but a must.

coz only by giving up

can you continue acting tat young innocent and stupid

2009-08-31T00:14:00.002+08:00

"Coz life gave me a explosion right in the middle today"
today's screwed. No comments about it. It is nt even my fault. Dam...How i wish you would understand. Played b-ball with jordan in the morning tuition mug sleep. How simple can life get?:) if only my dad was tat simple to comprehend
tmr teacher's day celebration. Gonna hope nothing screwed up.just life here i am hoping for love to strike me again.
i dun even know why u are taking it like this
it is not even my fault
but since u deem it as mine
u just make me sppechless
i am just a joke
as someone said before
a piece of crap and u are in it

2009-08-29T23:23:00.003+08:00

"Coz when u are so close and so far to me, you just leave me speechless."

coz i think i love youbut i think my mind hasn't gotten over you. It's tough.

I find that i have been too slack this term. I gotta study hard already. It's either now or never. Motivation is strongly needed. Hoping that teachers won't walk out from class again. So many things in life i hope for but i know it will never happen. I just gotta study hard now and i mean study rlly hard.dun wanna be called a follower coz i ain't i belive in my own rights and ways and tat is me:)

coz when u see things to a large extent

everything else is forgotten

except you.. and me

2009-08-28T23:43:00.002+08:00

wat can i say about this love? haha confusing "Coz when the party's over you look back at the balloons and wish u were still back there."

Yes i am back:) hahaha credits to ESTER YEO for helping me solve tat persistent problem. Yay now i dunnid to go to lj already.
LJ sux coz
1.no one can tag me
2.no one bother looking i guess which might be good to:)
3.nothing else

Finally it has been the end of week 9. This whole school year seems to past in the blink of an eye and suddenly i find myself looking back at this year and regretting so many things.. like u leaving me my sucky results and things like tat. Oh ya and my class too, sadly:(
The last week of school is coming, or rather, the last 3 days are already approaching. I really dunno wat to say of it... It was basically a screwedupdunwannatalkmuchalthoughcouldverymuchbefulfillingandyetnotcozidunhavthesenseofvictory kind of feeling. oh ya, did i add fked up by any chance too?

tuition's work piling
school's work snowballing
but love is...
just unfulfilling i guess...

2009-08-15T20:48:00.000+08:00

if tat's the way u choose to think of me and tell others abt me, u are no diff from what u said of me

2009-07-31T23:09:00.002+08:00

i have said all i needed to... i can live on with no regrets already

2009-06-28T00:33:00.002+08:00

If you still visit here thanks... i am currently nt going to post anything after i decided my emotions were too much for me to handle already. This sux srly and now come to think of it i shouldn't even be writing this but why am i still? oh nvm...
wish i didn't see tat picture wish i wasn't emo wish i didn't think so much nothing but... wishes

pissed

2009-06-01T00:25:00.002+08:00

yes i am pissed... i can't seem to solve an amaths problem and it is now so late...omgosh...... i might as well go kill myself already:(...
lol just kidding here to post just to rant on my parents...
why can't i read
is it even an offence
u said tat it would do me no help in life
tat comics were just a bunch of rubbish
but is this really true?
my genre of books ain't a wide variety
so isn't this an attempt to get myself to read more
i know my languages suck
and my bro is good
there was no need to harp on it
gosh
i hate it
DONE.

finally

2009-05-31T12:30:00.003+08:00

after a night's sleep i cleared my mindand reading someone's blog
i decided to be a good boy now and study
no more fooling around
no more wasting of time
spend more time with yr family(as they always complain i nvr)
if I'm really bored just read books
tat's it

i miss puck. real bad....the carefree life...the wise sayings everything....

haiz

2009-05-31T00:26:00.003+08:00

my arm is aching nw..guess i have nt given it a proper rest ever since i wrote so many essays omg why did i? it is like hist lit ss eng compo/letter chi compo/letter amaths emaths also kinda need then still gt volleyball and basketball haiz...
stretching myself to the limit
i think i have been sometimes just too much for god sake i am nt even hardworking lo and my results still suck... despite a vast improvement and me appearing happy and go cheering up other ppl there is still tat empty feeling
strangely enough mr zaid nvr call my parents lol he scammed my dad again. i wonder now if my dad is angry or not:o....
i suddenly wish it was the beginning of the year then i would focus more on my humanities and languages and dun need to be so frantic abt maths....lol ignore me just crapping gah...
alright i can't deicide wat to blog already this is killing me chelsea just won everton 2-1.
DA突然我心里想着你
DA看到你的桌子
DA我似乎开心起来
DA难道那才是真的爱吗？
DA问题是：你感觉到吗？
DA那无奈与无情的脸
DA真是让我感到头疼
DA我真是对不起了她
DA也对不起了你
DA我真希望跟你说一句
DA一句就够了
DA我那就是心满意足了

signing off...da bored

p.s. post the chem thing on classboard(self-reminder)
p.s to the boy from hcl: i am too bored to entertain u u shld be honoured i even mention yr name-.- can i cry now?:)
p.s thanks to all the other taggers:)(besides tat assholic bfhcl)

nervous

2009-05-26T23:51:00.002+08:00

tmr is basketball interclass and wat am i doing instead of sleeping? blogging-.- i dun even know why i am blogging but ya here i am probably i shld consider going mia again haha. recently i checked my marks, it was bloody screwed end of story.
i wan to excel is it just tat hard?

2009-05-25T00:04:00.004+08:00

No boundaries-kris allen
LOL i ain't a fan of him but compared to adam his genre of music suits me way more as in srly lo i dun like adam rock and roll style but i dun mind him his music is cool in a certain sense haha quick post just for those ppl who still bother to check in here:) cheer up sueanne i know how it feels kay? just...you shouldn't have been so rash...

///edit///
i will link many ppl real soon and try to keep this blog up to date:)
i chose this song also coz i like the lyrics too ok and it is better than how adam sings in my opinion... nt wat you think lol
adam version of the song is somewhere too gotta find it yrself:)

Back

2009-05-22T23:14:00.007+08:00

lols i am back... say yay haha:) well ya i am supposed to blog ain't I? coz i got my a1s liao haha surpise leh last time there was NOT A SINGLE a1 in my report book all Bs....or Cs...sian so what should I do now? blog about what? i need inspiration badly...

results basically i screwed up lo expected myself to get better for a lot of subjects haha eng and chi were epic failures pleased with letter though:) maths was disappointing though i met my targets humanities exceeded my expectations though except ss sciences were both disappointing too especially chem i think i am dam clever though to scam the whole class:D i spoke a half truth half lie lol lol

i have been sitting down browsing other websites for 5 mins and still i can't think of anything oh ya birthday...been like a month plus? haha thanks to all those tat still wish me and gave me the presents especially TIMONTHY lol tat was unexpected...i can't believe some ppl got shocked when they learnt of my birthday n they did not bother to wish me haiz life's kinda fated tat way huh? sian
lastly

midsummer play haha it was funny but i did nt take any pics except someone used my phone to go zi lian=.= and now tat person is forcing me to put up a para for her... the person i like most in the play is puck and flute the former for her mysterious and indigenous personality the latter
for his extreme courage to go take on a female role in the play and bringing out the sense of comedy.:)

VICKY TJIA OMG WHY DID YOU ZI LIAN WITH MY PHONE NOW MY PHONE THE SCREEN CRACK LA:D haha lol not yr fault la relax but still u wasted my phone memory...oh well at least i did royston a good deed u can take this off if u demand it royston:) thanks vic for helping me in the previous blogskin lol really appreciate it. Here is yr para be honoured u took up the most space in this post.

p.s. i dun wan to check my marks on mon

p.s p.s i dun wanna get report book on fri

p.s p.s p.s marcus my name is yan lun nt lan lun-.-

p.s p.s p.s p.s when can we see class photo???

I just don't understand a sun can always have a sunset and rise up again but why am I not like tat? here u go vic yr "sun"-.- no intention to really put it though

2009-04-22T23:35:00.001+08:00

will be back after mid-years so dun miss me ppl:)

The Truth and Lies about Pictures(lol?)

2009-03-17T22:16:00.032+08:00

hmm...short post... must not emo coz i promised sis i won't ahahaha:D so here i am thinking of what to write when i just remembered of clearing my phone memory away and maybe putting it here for memorial sake.
For my own reminder
1.Do yr hols hw
2.Teach yr bro maths dun let him fail again with yr parents hollering after you
3.Maintain my results(if i can ever do that:( )
4.Rest yr ankle well
5.Stop thinking so much
6. Be nice to ppl(I'm trying!)
7. Rmb to ask Clara to treat you all the lunch(es?) she promise(maybe i could use that to repay the one i owe someone lol)
8.Study hard
9.Study hard
10. STUDY HARDER
11.STUDY HARDER
12.STUDY ALL YOU CAN.
13.STUDY UNTIL YOU DROP(MAYBE?)
14.Get something to amuse my bro so bad until he wants to quit playing his com games
15.Excel in volley if i can lol...

And now, for a bit of laughter to cheer myself up:D

*NOTE:The Following Content You are Going to View May contain explicit and very lame content and comments of ppl you know, or meet on the streets. If so, pls bear in mind that All inferences made are clearly untrue and should never be taken to heart. Failure to comply will result in you being a jackass(i hope?).:D:D:D happy viewing.

Mr Yee remedial lesson

It never surprises me how a teacher can drink water
without touching the bottle.

as u know we learnt this before but i screwed it up for amaths test haizz

We learnt this before but i dunno why i am learning it again...

I wish I had the chance to have THAT easy a question for test.

SEE? so easy....

HERITAGE TRAIL

We went past this stop and when I took a closer look i realised it was the bus stop which me and vicky got scammed by royston... how 路痴we can get

Poor ming zhe had to sit alone but he had a nice view of someone from down there who already alighted hor...poor guy must take a bird's eye view then can see his...*cough cough* haizzz

You know, I thought this dream garden is mine at first so well trimmed before I realise it was to commemorate those ppl who died in world war 1-.-

You know it reminds me of the book the secret garden but i doubt anyone of you reads tat

We had a commercial break for our heritage trail too! and huggie s was our proud sponsor:D dun u think the baby is like javier? so round and chubby?:D:D:D

Now she's gone i just have to look back only poor mingzhe....她走了只可以回溯到过去

I swore Javier was holding a pole as thick as his head and doing a pole dance( with my fingers crossed)

understandable that justins eats a lot drinks a lot but then...

SOMEONE JEALOUS?XD

UNGLAM PHOTO OF MY DARLING ROYSTON OMGZZZ

JAVIER GOES AT THE SPEED OF LIGHT!!! (if the light was reduced by 10^30 km/h speed)XD

Three things:
1.Javier is attracting attention
2.Chester is jealous
3.Justin is eyeing my food now!!!

See that blurry thing there? A plastic bag flown there and was dangling all the way even heavon also increase their technology.... no more water liao

1.Ql gettin tempted by lollipop (note the size!!!!)
2. Ql laughing is really cool! if only i could laugh like him!!!

Chester on a rendezvous....unfortunately

(plan 1 of looking at me failed)

he spotted me haizz...
(Plan 2 of looking at me STILL failed)

Jordan i know u were nice enough to let me eat yr food... were you???>:(

QUANLI BIRTHDAY PARTY

FAITH with the ULTRA EVER COOL SPECS

Vicky desperately trying to finish all the food up....

CLASS OUTING

BROTHERS AND SISTERS(looks more like grandpa and grandma to me but they insist on me taking so...)

Grandapa being a naughty old man and stealing grandma specs...tsktsk

THAT IS ALL EXPECTING ANY MORE???TOO TIRED GOTTA GO SLEEP:D:D:D

UPDATE///EDIT///
gratz to myself
abt 1 month since i last updated
guess u will have to wait for quite some while for me to update
Basically i updated
coz clara asked me too
and to my dozens of tags asking me too
shld wait a bit longer for a proper post:)
QUAN LI IF YOU SEE THIS TELL ME WHERE IS YOUR BLOG I WAN TO SPAM!!!:D:D:D
nvr felt so bad in my life before
first i was this now it was tat
i really dunno wat u ppl are thinkig
jl i wan to improve
but i know in yr mind
i never will
i am already trying my best
i hope i have gt better reaction
and to you
idk wat to say
u can make me as high as the heavens
and as low as the sea
i wish we could start all over again
when we were just friends
the first time i gave my all
or did i really do?
i just...dunno why
tat i suddenly feel like...
i wan to live in the past again
to be in a world of innocence
and not let yr parents scream at you
abt the global crisis and how u are doing yr part
nt to help
i saw mervyn today
and i was pleased
been about 2 years since i saw him
he has grown thinner
and taller than me
the chat
was the most carefree moment of tat day:)
thanks best bud
if you ever read this:)

ok finally back

2009-02-22T00:02:00.016+08:00

omg i finally finished my hist assignment like woots???/ haha but i wrote 2024 words...zomg wan die liao.... ok the past few weeks were ok... at least i think they were... they shld be ba? i emoed laughed emoed played volley sprained my ankle went out with classmates saw zi han and kevin at tuition??? haha life is just tat boring for me...sianzzzz maybe i shld just upload some pics...

went for valentine outing cycled cycled then after that we went to mac to rest lols... so many people "emo" sia haha sadly could nt get weining and hm coz my seating position nt good enough
<-----emo marcus:o

<--- emo tan yiXD
emo vicky :X

<------emo quan li but look like he is doing something else haha:p

<-----haizzz my poor emo royston :(

On Tues we went to eat lunch outside coz so many ppl dio detention so no mood to eat at school well at least me royston vicky and clara la...

First Vicky had to do CLARA'S HOMEWORK :O:O:O

Then, it seemed like Vicky loves Ernie and wants to steal him away from the yellow guy i forgot his name.
Note: Look at the shocked expression on Ernie's face and the fact that Vicky is nt tall enough to block out the yellow guy Barney pangseh all of them too

In the end i went on the wrong escalator while the other 3 just went to the third floor how could I sia? I must be getting dumber by the day already...

Turn out in the end we went to eat at yakoniko or somthing like tat... i was the only person to eat my bowl clean so proud of myself eh vicky??:D and royston too :P:P:P pity clara had to leave earlier she only buy packet haizz...

omg u see this???? they ask pedestrians to go this way as in down...:O

ya well went to my cuz house to emo actually haha supposed to be celebrating his daughter one month but haizz the scenary quite nice here:)

i dun wan top emo i must not face it yan lun u lost yr trust with her already now try to slvage it or face the cruel end:(

need a breather

2009-02-08T11:22:00.003+08:00

sianz gt so much tests yet i am slacking liao guess after this week of tests i may have a short break i guess but nothing is gonna be the same again... i guess after this week i need to improve on my eng can't afford to get another just pass again although the bonus 3 helped me to get a c la but still... no mood to blog? any help?seeing yr life so excitin my heart feels contented already

静静地坐在你的身边

还会有多少这样的时间

我要迎着这窗外的光线

牢牢的记住你微笑的侧脸

我说了离别不会伤悲

这是我对你唯一的欺骗

因为我最喜欢你的双眼

那么美不适合掉眼泪

你要好好的去飞不需要对我想念

我会默默地留下右手边的座位

有一天当你看过世界

再决定你降落的地点

而我也会继续地奔驰在这长长的街

左手边是我的心右手边没有谁

为了你再寂寞我都可以成全

因为我相信说过了再见

一定会再见

我说了离别不会伤悲

这是我对你唯一的欺骗

因为我最喜欢你的双眼

那么美不适合掉眼泪

你要好好的去飞不需要对我想念

我会默默地留下右手边的座位

有一天当你看过世界

而我也会继续地奔驰在这长长的街

再决定你降落的地点

左手边是我的心右手边没有谁

为了你再寂寞我都可以成全

因为我相信说过了再见

一定会再见

你要好好的去飞不需要对我想念

我会默默地留下右手边的座位

为了你再寂寞我都可以成全

因为我相信说过了再见

一定会再见

is it coz of me or you?

2009-02-06T19:32:00.006+08:00

screw e maths test-it's getting harder and harder to breathe each day
just realised how to do tat 1 ques-just so u know
which gt me stuck like for 5-10 mins-i am still waiting
dam dumb-or at least i think i am
said shit when i couldn't figure out why
guess it was a bit loud
but oh wells....
i have been dealing with a lot lately
guess i was lucky it did not really affect my a maths and chem test
hope the next few tests will be ok
have gt chi, physics and eng component even though i dunno when the english one is
a maths is gonna get tougher
ppl around me( excluding chester and wei ning) have been falling under stress
it seems like we have our own limits too
teachers have been rapidly complaining us
even faster than a rain drop falling to the ground
are we really tat bad?
and now i am trying to comprehend when others ask me about you
even though it really hurts me a lot
sometimes i cannot help but wonder
why? somebody said it was coz of something
i got shocked
i really dun wan to say anything
but my mind oculd only think of one thing
dun wish to say it here
ok better stop
if nt i will get emo D:< color="#ffffff" size="1">to ********** ****
i really dunno what is wrong now
why do i have the funny premonition
that peace and unrest is heavily residing inside us
maybe is coz we hdun trust?
i really wish to have a free life
free of complaints
but i know i nvr can have one

a new realisation

2009-01-28T22:54:00.006+08:00

it is only now tat i realise
the peace which once existed in this world has gone
the whole world has gone down
peace and love is hard to find
to find a true love is a blessing
for ppl who have true friends around you
treasure them
for ppl who have lovers around you
treasure them
coz only when they are gone and not appearing in front of you
then you realise how much u miss them
OMG I GOT 400 plus bucks already:D:D:D woots so happy....
nothing to post so goodbye:P

the pain is slowly gone now
the wound is going to heal
i know itbut like all the wounds i have on my body
is the scar ever gonnah eal again?
now the goal is gone
but i am trying to tell myself to work hard towards it
do what is best for you
know that u will let the wounds heal
and the let the sun tan the scar
to be back to normal
u know now tat antiseptic is helpless
so is iodine
coz the antidote
is something so strong
it cannotbe seen
to see your life close to perfection
is laready a joy for me:)
so dun worry mmuch aboutme

i will be fine:)
to all my firends out there
thank you so much
regardless of where you are

no life

2009-01-18T22:08:00.004+08:00

i have gone crazy.
I do nothing but work nowadays
can't find back the least bit of playful self for me.
I actually mug till 12 nowadays.
I want some rest.
Tiring myself out physcially by venting my frustrations in life.
So now i only do 4 things in my life,
play sports,
listen to music,
chatting with ppl
and do work.:(
nothing else
so here i am blogging
trying my best to do something more useful.
i hope i will be distracted by something now
not too big
but not too small too
i still wan to get my goal
to go tjc
is it my imagination or is it gonna be for real? i hope my instincts won't be true this time...

bored

2009-01-11T08:52:00.003+08:00

ain't nice waking up so early now everybody in my house is sleeping already:o this whole week has been pure fun, haha one of the best weeks yet. Maybe it is coz none of the work(as in the real work) has piled in yet.so as i sit here in front of the com typing out some rubbishy hullabloo words let me just think to myself over the week. (coz i am getting so dam frigging bored:( )
1.I hate myself. No doubt.
2.I finally realised the missing element. Passion.
3.Surprisingly class became fun, more fun than anything else
4.I hate having sleepless nights but seems like i need to so as to be able to complete my work.
5.I hate being so busy from mon to wed, with only getting a slight breather on thurs and a better breather on fri, thus when i still need to chiong work, i find it dull.
6.I want to thank sirong and vicky for creating the class blog no doubt and all those tat tagged and asked me to link them haha:)
7.I want to go for a maths tuition but my parents think i can cope by myself. They only want me to go for sci, eng and chi.:( but on the good side, i will be 3 hours more free time as it is 1 1/2 hours, twice a week.
8.I seem to be in a current state of serious mental problem this past few times when i am outside of class, so dun blame me if i snapped at you like a mad dog:D

ok i was just kidding abt the last one.
何人かの人々に: 私は残念しかしi don'であり; tはiが一度それでのために突然懇願した情熱がなぜないようではないか知っている。私は約3週間私の形態を失おうとしていたまたはむしろ私は考える彼がいかに失ったかキャンプの後で、誰かの後で私に言ったのであったことをの信頼は私が推測する誰かの実際に私の感情を傷つけた。私達は個人的な栄光がeveryone'にあることを互いを待機するべきであるがようである集団である; sの頭部。それはちょうど私達がすべてむしろ別の個人であるように、won'またようであるかもしれない; それを表現して容易であるt。
thinking abt changing blog song again... suggestions anyone?:)

2009-01-03T08:03:00.003+08:00

well, i guess this is my later? haha already like 2 days liao...lols...XD
and i currently have no mood to blog still:( where was the inspiration?
3BN was ok feels werd coming late and in long pants coz it is like almost everybody is there already, haha then me and justin decided to go find tsz hin and kev and jx so we went upstairs and surprise surprise lor, we saw a long thin guy carrrrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyying (note how i stress the length of tat word:X) some books which is basically enough to last me like about 2-3 terms :O later realised kevin and tsz hin went down to find us except they went by the other staircase. lol? haha.
i know i am going to be super busy for like the rest of the year. zomg then:(
later we had flag raising and othe rboring stuff like tat before we got introduced to our new form teacher, kinda shocked coz it is the same teacher tat i tried to ask him something during last year end of year but he daoed me:O:O:O oh nvm wat great fate. haha but he seems different from then.
everything is down for me trying my bes to enjoy my possibly last weekend not having any home work slowing
think i should be ok already by then coz he seems quite a nice teacher. the class was ok, no comments and not going to compare coz it was totally different from back then. after school went with dearest to parkway parade to eat lunch and walk around. Haha, it was great:) one of the most enjoyable days and time of my life wish i could have more days like tat...:)
i am tired, weary, not knowing wat to do
this weekend also pretty slack for me nothing much for me to do at all... so i am feeling very bored:o can anyone reccomend me any homework for me to do to kill off my boredom? at least for the whole of this day? haha maybe the day will already be over when most people see this...rofl..
the past enthusiasm and excitement in me----died...totally
tat shall be all haha... dun expect another post from me in a long long time haha:)
have i just changed or have i matured? i really dunno...

2009-01-01T09:33:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR PPL
haha shall blog more later now currently chionging tuition hw... why do i even hav tuition on new year sia?!?!

NEW SKIN.

2009-01-01T02:24:00.002+08:00

Tong Tsz Hin you are too much already luh!

Anyway happy new year everyone!
I PROMISED SOMEONE I WOULD POST TODAY LATER ON WHEN I FINALLY WAKE UP.
After all, pigs must sleep.

Haha yay new blogskin. Creditz to ME.

Ng Yan Lun, you good sleep so early. Hey change the tagboard colours yourself, I don't have ur cbox password!. Cya please post.

Why must it be like that?

2008-12-18T19:46:00.004+08:00

Some things can just never be fulfilled like that right? I tried so hard but if everything was to come to nought it would be disappointiung
maybe gunning my hopes were just far too much
maybe i should have waited a little longer
but the truth really hurts i tried to improve i swear i tried but then when it was told i just stood rooted to the spot not wanting to talk much
i just can't understand it why? if it was him i don't mind but it had to be him...Why him?
I tot i was better than him i tot i could do things better then him but just as it all turns out like my academic results
i tried so hard but everything was to just fail like tat.. it is very disappointing... I don't even know why i am trying so hard. I do most things where most ppl choose to not do... I choose a unique path but it looked to somehow backfire on me
i am afraid i cannot hold on so long it is just too hard for me to stay to it...try as i might but everytime i try harder it gets worse...Maybe doing more than what is needed is bad...
Maybe i should have given up long ago...
Maybe I should have done this matter to my own hands...
Maybe I could salvage it like tat
Maybe if i tried to
Or should it be if i had not wanted to?

Oh please let it be a nice sweet dream or an evil one
So tat when i wake up i realise it will be gone
I also get to sleep it off
and I still get another chance
to have my wish finally fulfilled
and not to see it
shatter into a million pieces
and make me feel horrible with myself
and make me terrified of myself
fear to take another step
fear to put in all my best
fear to have a dream...

I hope to be still in lumberland
when all things could just end
and i could be a happy guy
having a good experienced sleep

A Fruitless Day

2008-11-30T21:37:00.005+08:00

Ya well today went to pp to supposedly upgrade my phone and get my bro new phone turned out we did only half of it as we got my bro phone no surprises there wat it was but i won't tell still just knwo that it is a very popular phone... wanted to upgrade my phone but there were no good phones currently available in the starhub place so i guess i gotta have to wait another week or two weeks or maybe even 3...gosh sia...

tmr gonna be a busy day can't even believe i took the initiative to tuition my bro for 3 times a week (but it was mainly coz of the pay but shhhh XD)
you just saw nothing...

volley trg have been rather fun so far coz i get to play in the matches but sometimes also can feel a bit sian one...hope i can still improve coz my skills somehow seem to be unable at a constant level. Gotta go and correct my service problem sia....haiz... hope to have fun in the volley camp where it is 3 days 2 nights :o

suddenly i thought about next year...hope i can cope with sec 3 work :o i know it is gonna be tough but i gotta persist...:( hope to do well... Also hope to have a gd week next week with no one like ben or dloy calling me:( getting very irritating lehs... At least message me dudes i have yr numbers it is not like i dun wan to scold u but still... nvm haiz...

I need someone other than my dear to trust if not i can only just keep hoing forward:o

2008-11-23T11:14:00.005+08:00

ok finally i am back, being a guai boy,
i went with my parents to the market, despite me being sick again yesterday,
something seriously wrong with my immune system
i had better not get sick on tues if nt later cannot go volley then will get killed by seniors :x
lots of things have happened
class chalet, hm bbq, going out with my confidante
glad i did nt collapse halfway in any of them which would be like an utter disaster

hm bbq was quite funny and fun though this is the first time i slacked in a bbq haha:)
played asshole taiti with javier, tsz hin, valerie(i think), clinton joined in a few rounds and someone else i forgot
javier was super funny as usual, though i prefer to persuade him to stay in BN, even though he told me he tried appealing into geog...
after tat left quite early coz gt forced by my dad
i left with dearest and tsz hin
which reminds me
i still haven't blamed tsz hin for his actions after he forced me to come even though i have fever
waited for dearest bus later before boarding mine
see la all yr fault
forced me to go and in the end i reached home about 10 plus
just a few minutes after my curfew:p but nvm love you all the same:D
i almost forgot
tat clinton guy says his trg is super hiong
wish i could have trg like him lo though i know the rest of the team won't:(
had class chalet on thurs
first went to tat place super early in the morning to go buy some of the bbq stuff
after tat went to jx house watch some videos
on how to be ninja, how to be gangster, how to be emo and how to be nerd
super funny
jx laughed till his pants split
ok ignore the last part
after tat we went to collect the food
and the qequipment
we boarded the bus to parkway
on the way received sueanne message saying
she was just outside lucky
we looked back and realised we were going to lucky
conincidentally saw sueanne on the same bus
i shouted to her but i think she didn't hear
after a while then she heard
she then told us wat happened...
we reached mac
was one of the earliest
let those who wan to eat a bit go eat
but in the end mac sorta became like a gathering place for us
once most of the ppl reached
we left straight for ntuc
with only 3 ppl going giant
unfortunately
one of them was yi liang
and he was the only guy

after tat met with most of the class and we left for the chalet
supposed to take bus but it did nt come so we took taxi
probably we gt scammed
by the bus timing
which could mean the website was nt updated
when we reached the chalet
slacked a while before unpacking and stuff like tat
started to get a funny feeling
shall nt say why here
but somehow i tgt me solemn-.-
and i ain't emo
later we went to arcade
i helped justin win some coins which was kinda lucky
watched ppl play some pool
before going to play basketball
as expected
gt kinda owned by some pro shooting ppl
later when more ppl came
we played full court with so mnay ppl
i gt the game first 3 pointer
ain't like 3 pointer at all
weird
no ecstatic feeling when i go in
nvms
after tat at 5 left for bbq
started the fire
first few were really bad
later then it started to get better
around 7 plus i left the pit
coz my eyes were too red
went to microwave the satay
tasted quite good for a person who has never microwaved satay before
felt kinda proud of myself
saw sueanne brenda they all frying stuff
then i know what is called the real pro
after all the cooking
helped to clear up
gt quite meo after tat tried to occupy my mind with many things
maybe coz i am just missing u and my phone was sot oculdn't receive yr msgs
so lied down
lucky justin saved my life with his eye dropper
helped me a lot
10 plus i left
sueanne tried to stuff my bag with maggi mee
but i told her to save for the class
so good boy sia
i know my biao di confirm wan eat a lot
as he is quite a fat pig
though he is thin
post about the rest next time
when i am free

BTW
thanks to
Sueanne for making sure everything ran smoothly
Tsz Hin for smsing the class to wear class tee
Brenda for booking teh chalet
those of you(like my biao di) who came to buy the stuff
and those of you who helped to finish the stuff
thanks a lot!!:D

Birthday post for my dearest

2008-11-23T09:09:00.010+08:00

haha the pro has done it again making this post appear way back to yr b-date, equivalent to going back in time haha...nvms.. here is the post for my dearest whose birthday is on 23rd Nov...

Dear,

haha i think this year might be one of the most fun b-days u ever had right? getting yr cake smashed in the face, spending yr time at vivo with me, haha those days will never ever be forgotten i guess...
this year has been a brilliant one for you right? With you going tjc, meeting a whole bunch of new friends(like me!:D) ,meeting a lot of ppl u never knew existed(lol i am being lame) and most of all loving me!!!(haha i sound so bhb)

let us take a quick recap of things shall we?

i will never forget this gift haha coz it took me 1 hour to get it on my phone!!! haha... but it has a lot of memory sake lols i still rmb the shock i gt when i saw this gif tcoz i could never expect you to make a custom gift like tat for me... wish i could have gt something custom made but does the card count? XD

haha this thing...kinda makes me think a lot u still rmb wat happened during tat time ya? now somehow things have been reversed eh? hahas... u gave me such a nice card for my birthday lehs i am so envious:p coz my art and handwriting ain't as good as you

you also gave me this rmb? the voodoo doll..u noe it says tat it will help u to rope yr lovers back to you or smthing but somehow in the end it roped you!!! love this birthday gift too and see it everyday coz i put it on my thumbdrive. Haha

through thick and thin
through everything
u have always accompanied me
when i was down after i scored badly for my bio test
you encouraged me by telling me that i actually had put in my best
when i had done so much
you just repaid everything
even twice or thrice more
you see the picture below?
though it is used by two different hands
the heart is still so perfect
and gives one the impression
that their love is forever going stronger:)

l is for the way u look at me
o is for the only one i see
v is for someone very special
e is because she is extraordinary:)

and yes i can promise u tat i will love you always never forgetting those memories we cherish and those people we have met along the way. 2 years is gonna be a long wait for me but i can assure you tat i will be there for you no matter wat happens.:)

when i see this picture i kinda get intrigued by it. I know you might be thinking a simple word, love right? nothing much but still look deeper... haha:p in case some piggy being really dumb i shall just help to relieve yr misery haha:p for yr info it is made of metal and though it is small...it can definitely grow bigger and nt be broken easily...there is a reason for everything dear hahas:P:P:P

I wish u to have yr best 14th birthday anyone could ever have k? celebrate this whole year before you suddenly become 15 and have to wait again for 11 months...haha:P

Sick, bored and guess i am gonna rot at home soon

2008-11-18T10:06:00.002+08:00

ya well so i am sick down with fever but nt bad la highest temp so far was 38.5..... how the hell did i get sick? Gosh, anyway volley ain't gonna be really fun... coz i gt into 3BN and apparantly an example like yao chang has already betted on me retaining already-.- i dun get it wat is wrong with 3BN? it is like another double sci double humans class? must it be discriminated until like tat? How do I go around telling people hi i am from 3Bn and it is nt the worst class we take 8 sub just like everyone else..wth..it is my first choicei tell u and i never regretted putting it so i believe tat 3BN is so gonna be loved ok?
hahas..lols... heard someone complaining but still there was no need to complain when i am right behind her -.- a bit too obvious ah...ROFL... anyway class chalet around the corner haiz sian h mchalet even nearer tonight dun even know whether i can go or nt...
never before hav i ever reached this low a class i know my heart is nt thinking tat way but if u wan me to endure one year like this i am afraid i can't hearing ppl get laughed and letting them get some time to let the idea is just stupid...like WTF? no kidding our calss is nt like those no one wan go kind of stream in fact i bet most of the ppl who go to our class at least considered putting it down as a choice every blog i go i hear ppl complaining i had enough...like dam...

2008-11-12T21:06:00.000+08:00

Shape of my heart

2008-11-09T00:18:00.001+08:00

Hmm, yeah, yeah
Baby, please try to forgive me
Stay here don't put out the glow
Hold me now don't bother if every minute it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man that I've become, oh yeah

Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Sadness is beautiful loneliness that's tragical
So help me I can't win this war, oh no
Touch me now don't bother if every second it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man I've become

Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

I'm here with my confession
Got nothing to hide no more
I don't know where to start
But to show you the shape of my heart

I'm lookin' back on things I've done
I never wanna play the same old part
I'll keep you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Show you the shape of my heart

haha thanks darling for willing to share with me all yr secrets...i guess you are right...we shld nt keep anything from each other...i think i have als odecided to be very truthful to you so tat we can be a secret-free couple HAHA

anywhere for you-backstreet boys

2008-11-09T00:16:00.002+08:00

Oh, yeah

I'd go anywhere for you
Anywhere you asked me to
I'd do anything for you
Anything you want me to (ohhh, ohhh)

Hey baby

I'd walk halfway around the world
For just one kiss from you
Far beyond the call of love
The sun, the stars, the moon
As long as your love is there to lead me
I won't lose my way, believe me
Even through the darkest night, you know oh oh

Chorus:
I'd go anywhere for you
Anywhere you asked me to
I'd do anything for you
Anything you want me to
Your love as far as I can see
Is all I'm ever gonna need
There's one thing for sure
I know it's true (I know it's true)
Baby, I'd go anywhere for you (for you) (ohhh)

I used to think that dreams were just
For sentimental fools
And I'd never find someone
Who'd give their love so true u u u
But I knew the very minute (ohh)
Couldn't live my life without you in it
Now I want the whole wide world to know (ohhh)

Chorus:
I'd go anywhere for you
Anywhere you asked me to
I'd do anything for you
Anything you want me to
Your love as far as I can see (see yeah)
Is all I'm ever gonna need
There's one thing for sure
I know it's true (I know it's true) (ohhh)
Baby, I'd go anywhere for you

Hey baby, (hey) hey baby, hey baby, (nah)
Hey baby (hey baby), hey baby (oooh)

Chorus:
I'd go anywhere for you
Anywhere you asked me to
I'd do anything for you
Anything you want me to
Your love as far as I can see (I can see)
Is all I'm ever gonna need (need)
There's one thing for sure
I know it's true (I know it's true, I know it's true)
Baby

I'd go anywhere for you (anywhere)
Anywhere you asked me to (I'll do anything)
I'd do anything for you (whatever you want me to)
Anything you want me to (ooh, yeah, oh baby, yeah)
Your love as far as I can see (see)
Is all I'm ever gonna need (gonna need)
There's one thing for sure
I know it's true (ohh)
Baby I'd go anywhere for you (ohhh)

For you (ohhh)

yes darling i would willingly sacrifice myself for you nomatter wat...coz u are just someone so special in my heart i doubt there is anybody else who can replcae it

Back from hols and my was it terrible(note i took how many days to finish this post due to my laziness)

2008-11-04T19:44:00.005+08:00

ok so i am finally back from my hols was bored out in the USA seriously...just stay at hotel or macs or some other nearby shops go use internet and find some nice basketball jerseys...woots i got a kobe jersey haha...YAY

at australia it was slightly more funs besides the super huge flies which keep pestering me hahaXD my cousins kept using death blows to try to aim at our backs with the motive of getting rid of the flies haha... but actually it is more of killing us

well first day we went to the phillips island...super bored there only fun part is the penguins which u get to see... the penguins are all like so cute and small... but it was freezing cold!!! i covered myself up till my bro called me a "ninja" -.- took some seriously stupid photos later maybe gonna upload...

second day we went to the garden i think forgot wat was the name but it had quite a no of mazes and the motive was like super dumb whenever there was a fork me and my cuz kept saying u go here i go here then when we meet we will go back the previous route which the other took...super dumb in the end we did nt even complete our target which i dun even know wat it was... hahas... after tat went to the strawberry farm before going to the wine cellar... my bro was stupid he pretended to be drunk and kept whacking me... and he only had like half a glass...coz tat is the only wine allowed for ppl below 18 in australia... the rest we are nt allowed to drink but still my cuz somehow persuaded their moms to buy -.-... after tat went to hotel slacked and slept simple right???

third day i think was quite a free day if my memory does not fail me... we went to the oldest train puffing billy the tickets were like super ex la like one ticket cost about 80-100 and it is just one stop on that train but i think it was ok la... saw some super nice gifts but sadly cannot buy coz the y all cost close to a 100... =.=...after tat went to the only market in melbourne before going to the shopping centre... boring...the arcade was terribly expensive no kidding...one game is like 2 bucks? robbing me sia...but still i spent about 6 bucks in there... played 3 games and the australia stacker also scammed haha...my cuz spent 10 bucks on it and each time reach the last one then fail... dad went back on tat day too i think

fourth day i went to the end of the australia to...commit suicide haha no la...go see plenty of scenaries like the twelve apostles like tat... haha shan;t reveal too much here let the pictures which i am gonna upload do the talking ba...

fifth day was the most boring... packed went to some shop which sells abalone then left to board a plane...was late and i had to rush had a period of brething difficulty was late coz my mom friend who insisted on bringing the abalones with her had to be confiscated coz inside had some water content...so she kept arguing..

tat was all haha

happy third month dearest hope u like yr ye jiang lun coz last time hwne we go bugis for lunch u told me u wanted it but everytime cannot find it haha see i am such an analytical person can read yr thoughts... love ya forever kay? thjanks for being there when i was down, when i was bored, when was happy, when i was sad, whe4n i was emo...

And so we shall stay on forever
bonded by this sort of love
one tat is hard to find
and one tat is hard to get
together we shall thrive
and let nature play its part
contriving to our happiness
making us learn so many things
and no matter wat
whether we are down
or whether we are up
just know
that yr heart will be in mine forever
and so will mine be in yrs i hope
if only had the courage to
so many chances
all just came and gone
haha i really wish to have a clear corage
but my guts keep stopping me
good luck to myself:)

quick post :D but long la

2008-10-28T23:08:00.004+08:00

here to post first before my dad comes coming after me for his laptop which is like so much better than me hahas... think i will just change song quickly..sian...pity u nt plurking nvm i just plurked hope ya like it ok? haha...

Corbin Bleu/Zac Efron(dunno who sang it) ft vanessa hudgens-Still there for me
Lately I've been
Thinking 'bout
The things that
We've been through

And I don't know
If I'll be here
If not for you

I had to take
A little time
To try to work
Things out

And if you know
That I have never
Meant to let you down

Cause I, I wanna tell
You that I'm sorry
And I, I

Even when I'm not
Giving enough but I'm
Taking too much
You're still there for me

Even when I've got
Nothing at all
And I'm ready to fall
You're still there for me
There for me
There for me

Even when I can't
Be there for you
You're always there
For me

Sometimes I know
I can be so hard
To understand
(It's okay)

Even when I'm last
To show me
Who I really am

Like with me
You have to know
It's been easy, right?
(Ohh ohh)

But because of you
I learned to lose
Myself's pride

Cause I, I wanna tell
You that I'm sorry
And I, I

Even when I'm not
Giving enough but I'm
Taking too much
You're still there for me

Even when I've got
Nothing at all
And I'm ready to fall
You're still there for me
There for me
There for me

Even when I can't
Be there for you
You're always there
For me

Yeah, wooaa oh, no
It's love. Oooh. Woaah
Must Be love
Oooah woah,
It's gotta be real love
It's gotta be real love
Real love...

Even when I'm not
Giving enough but I'm
Taking too much
You're still there for me

Even when I've got
Nothing at all
And I'm ready to fall
You're still there for me
There for me
There for me

Even when I can't
Be there for you (ooh)
When I can't be there
Even when I can't
Be there for you
You're always there
For me...

ok i know the meaning is nt really there and it said sorry even though u told me nt too but u shld get the rough meaning of it thanks for being there for me this whole year by my side...thru thick and thin we told countless secrets to each other and I just hope I have the courage to...Nvm...haha

FORCED TO POST

2008-10-22T21:12:00.004+08:00

haha so i am here to post coz i am forced to tat person should very well know who he/she is... HAHA...ain't i applying wat i learnt now?
tmr getting report book feel both good and bad...at least i improved by a lot o f marks already rather nervous abt tmr coz i think i will drop in terms of class position... sianzzz....
think also gt soccer interclass against hm and probably if we get in the finals...haha dunno which side u will be supporting eh? haha...nvm...i dun mind if u support yr class seriously
right now i hate the word left coz i injured my left elbow my left leg my left ass, ya probably worse than anything i could have imagined...
oh ya we are finally done with the zhong zhen bian x3 thing...YAY.....
haha learnt alot of thinsg throughout this whole process...like we know who slacked who helped... who really put in tat effort...haha during the actual performance me and tsz hin was like improvising a lot...seriously the whole script is like improvised lo... anyway grtaz to dl who won but shao hong? does tat mean you will skip trg? haha.....~~andofcoursegratztodearestwhogtaconsolationprizeandwonmeD:jealouslacan?~~
:D
haha thanks dearest for helping me to edit see i use big font and never highlight to thank you leh should be grateful to me haha...
i love you piggy for helping me.... and i will still miss you terribly:(

Can i have this dance?

2008-10-20T19:55:00.001+08:00

Lyrics:
Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine
And let the music be your guide
(Troy)
Won't you promise me
(Gabriella)
Now won't you promise me
That you'll never forget
(Troy)
We'll keep dancing
(Gabriella)
To keep dancing
(Together)
Wherever we go next

It's like catching lightning
The chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together
We just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn, will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you through it all
And you can't keep us apart
(Gabriella)
Even a thousand miles cant keep us apart
(Together)
Cuz my heart is wherever you are

It's like catching lightning
The chances we finding someone like you
It's one in a million the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together
We just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

Oh no mountain's too high
And no ocean's too wide
Cuz together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe that we were meant to be
Yeah

It's like catching lightning
The chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together
We just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

random days

2008-10-20T19:21:00.003+08:00

haha so fast tmr gt schhol already but i am still feeling tired...yawns..... the bian bian bian thing is really hetting into my head so troublesome sia...aiyo i gt so many lines too...

anyway preparation was rather good..thanks to those who helped out even though we are still lagging a lot... i believe we can do it by tmr:) have faith la...

after tat went to bugis eat lunch...nt bad there the food...but i had to help someone clear the
plate hor....haha...and yr bus is super lag...just admit it la....who is the pro eh? is this pro or pro?(p.s. i copy again heh:) )

just realised tmr will be a super long day.... after tat still gt soccer interclass... hope i can do well>.< sometimes i wish i can just do well in something which i really wan to bu tcompared to a lot of ppl i am just not...if i noe i still suck then why do i play? I wan to hearboth the bad and good things pls?
haiz...sun went to help tsz hin with the bian thing...did lots of stupid stuff there one of them includes me knocking into a cradle and my drink fell off when in mac...tsz hin kept laughing and it only gt worse when the kind person bought me a larger cup of ice-lemon tea which is like much more expensive...

later he kinda gt his revenge... I ain't mean ok? fine it may be partly my fault but i told you NOT to put there... haha so can't blame me:p...his drink gt knocked off by our project..the huge vanguard kinda pwned his drink while mine still stays firm...TAT is the difference between a large and small drink

other incidents include some dumb ones like he forgotting he put water inside the yellow paint and it kinda splashed out when he banged it on the table and he also dipped his penknife in tat same bottle of yellow paint...
hehe i know enjoyed today actually i did also but i wish it could last longer D: i wish tat everyday would just be like today so relaxing haha...anyway i have already gt a brainwave wat to buy for yr prezzie...u ah...haha...dun ask me if u see this coz i dun think u will understand...now my task is just to find it:) it is meant to be a surprise...
haha think i gonna change blog song already leh... found a dam cool song

orange day( credit me for having a paragraph for them)

2008-10-16T22:02:00.003+08:00

haha got back hist today wasn't tat emo la coz i did the method ah gong told me... it kinda worked and makes me feel better... but then the CCA point thing came and was kinda bored at tat coz all the thinsg we heard were the same as of last year... the only diff is tat this year ppl got caught...some potato thought she got caught right??? haha...

anyway today is orange's day right... o.o 2 more hours till it is over enjoy it while u can...:p pity the male one had volley and the female one needed to do some chinese recording hor...tsk tsk...

anyway checked combined marks today kinda sian...or else it is very wth lo...coz e had absolutely no time at first but at least we still got time later...Zzz...heard some stuff i shouldn' hear but nvm... i am just pissed off that my lit gt 64...haiyo i can actually score much higher one lo...

promise meyou won;t be emo anymore dearest...sometiems u just goota take things as it comes along...once u make a path, there could be no turining back though i am not saying that i object to what u did...i still feel that maybe u could do better...dun regret this path ya? and love ya=)

screwed up

2008-10-15T23:01:00.002+08:00

Screwed up every single test i received...Zzz...probably i just dun understand it...some stuff improved some stuff dropeed but somehow i wish i would be able to maintain everything...will I even be able to get into the stream i want? haiz...
sometimes i just feel like breaking down i dunno what is wrong with me...if it weren't for you i guess there would be no smile on my face. no one to be able to be there for me. no one to be able to comfort me.no one to have long chats with me the moment i feel down the moment the world seems to crumble.
sometimes everything just seems so bleak.... i dun even know whether i can get inside the combination i want? what if they reopened the seven subject combination? does this mean i will have to go that class? i dun wan to go tat class... All the months of hard work i have put in all just came to nought
yes i may put a smile on sometimes but does it prove i am really smiling? i try my best to smile...i really do...sometimes i find it hard to even just provide a grin...a smile which is just so impossible if it weren't for you... because of you i get to be able to smile... i get to be able to enjoy the things around this world, to appreciate it and be high...
this para is for you...good luck for yr interclass tmr... let it add another medal to yr galore or better maybe a trophy? haha ok:) at least u can't complain that u receive lesser than me coz u also have 2 medals while i also have 2 i only have 2 extra trophies though and it was luckyXD thansk for being there for me by my side really appreciated it and i dunno wat to say...thanks? haha...love ya(:

Get well soon

2008-10-12T17:21:00.002+08:00

Another day without your smile
Another day just passes by
But now i know how much it means
For you to stay right here with me
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurts so bad i can't take it any longer.

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you.

A thousand miles between us now
It causes me to wonder how
Our love tonight remains so strong
It makes our risk right all along
The time we spent apart will make our love grow stronger
But it hurt so bad i can't take it any longer.

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you.

Things can come and go
I know but
Baby I believe
Something's burning strong between us
Makes it clear to me.

I wanna grow old with you
I wanna die lying in your arms
I wanna grow old with you
I wanna be looking in your eyes
I wanna be there for you, sharing everything you do
I wanna grow old with you.
get well soon dearest how i wish i can have a fever now so i can experience the same things as you dun worry abt me...be more concerned for yrself k:)

if u ain't interested don't look

2008-10-10T22:17:00.020+08:00

sry emo just now...forced to post ahahaha...anyway here are some pics shall be very lame here so if u wan to continue scrolling down then...
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-INTRODUCING CCHMS SEC 2 VOLLEY CAPTAIN
CCHMS C DIV'08
playing badminton???

hmm....serious look?
emo when a point lost?

posing a sexy pose for me? X)

Now we know the secret behind his success invinsible arms

wat is he swinging it back like that for? baseball?

embrace yourself as he flies...

is this the correct way to hold a racket

and there he goes complaining to the referee

apparantly he gt a bit overboard... a yellow?

watch as the brave and heroic him dive to save a point

we were wrong...every part of his is invinsible
p.s he held it the wrong way again

at least his teammate ain't like him so overboard

but still he looks demoralised

u see what i mean? pointing the racket at the umpire i tell you...

tong tsz hin, genius boy aka sporty guy managed to finally overcome his nemesis after so long. Though he lost in the opening round of the doubles match against the top seed, lightning does not strike twice for him as he climbed his way thru and managed to win the top seed in singles, 2MD no 1 seed ong jun xiang, 15-10. When interviewed, Jun xiang said:"the floor was too slippery" But is this a valid reason for him? For many, this will prove a great joy to savour as tong tsz hin finally won a guy who has not lost to anybody in 2MD for more than a year. His last loss was never recorded and this will be the first time Tsz Hin has won after losing about 2-3 times. When interviewed tsz hin said:"aiya i was lucky only la, next time i will lose" but many people will not believe it as they adore their sporting hero who is not only captain for his CCA but does well in his studies, recently coming joint-top in class for his History test. Though personal matters still swirls and circulates around him, it is clearly seen that he cannot keep his emotions in check, venting against Jun Xiang smashes and relentless diving just to save every shuttlecock he can. Jun Xiang could not have been in good form and is apparantly said to be trying out a new style, which might have explained for his 6 net faults. Both of them insist they will still be good friends and classmates even after that resounding victory.
Credits:written by freelance journalistXD statistics provided by ownselfmight be inaccurate but dialogue is sure to be correct

there for all tsz hin lovers or admirers here is yr chance to admire him up close just dun tell him i did that X.X tsz hin grandpa i will still run away from the treat XD

你那么爱她

2008-10-10T21:04:00.002+08:00

直到爱消失　你才懂得　去珍惜身边每个
美好风景　只是她早已离去
直到你想通　她早已经　不再对你留恋
最后的你　开始了一段挣扎
你那么爱她　为什么不把她留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱她　这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱她为什么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个她
所以你不想再让自己　无法自拔
直到爱消失　你才懂得　去珍惜身边每个
美好风景　只是她早已离去
直到你想通　她早已经　不再对你留恋
最后的你　开始了一段挣扎
你那么爱她　为什么不把她留下
为什么不说心里话
你深爱她　这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱她为什么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个她
所以你不想再让自己　无法自拔
你那么爱她　为什么不把她留下
为什么不说心里话
你深她他　这是每个人都知道啊
你那么爱她为什么不把她留下
是不是你有深爱的两个她
所以你不想再让自己　无法自拔
this song is for you dearest u would be leaving and i would be missing u real lot not all of it is true in this song but well...u get the meaning

Sianzzz

2008-10-09T18:50:00.004+08:00

So ya, posting the super long post i promised...Zzz just argued with my bro...super sian... but nvm... think should get over it soon>.<>

anyway let's recap:

eng-think i scrwed up for compre will know on mon

chi-yi liang said my compo wrote out of point but my teacher said nt...hope not then

lit-only sub i feel good could write a lot of points and state a lot of explanation

geog-already scrwed up a few questions from wat i hear around and from wat i read i the newspaper...but some questions were surprisingly heard to be correct

maths-scrwed up paper, no time to do anything and everything

sci-would have felt good if i had paid more attention on the sexual reproduction chapter sadly i didn't and not rush thru chem so much but still able to recollect some points and felt good considering i had rushed thru only thing i knew i gt wrong was the photograph which i could have spent more time looking at it instead of just dumbly browsing thru it

hist-i kept writing and writing but still not enough time, spent 5 mins to do section c pro eh?

i think if i was not with you and did not have yr encouragement, it would be much worse:) love ya

time just passes too fast...though i cannot change nor voice out against certain things i really dun wan to leave this class haha...next year everything is going to be so new for me it is going to be extremely new with about 70 percent of my class going triple>.<>

yes when everything changes,i got to adapt again but won't a single in the class even consider lit??? Zomg.... life suddenly just abandons u at the lowest point of life but sometimes it will just pick u up and u will need time to adapt again...yr life suddenly goes a 180 degrees turn and u finally get on before(touch wood) something else happens

but you and me we will make all this behind us even though i am still adapting

right now everything is a change for me...grrr i dunno why also... I ain't like oranges who adapt too fast sometimes even too fast for people to reactXD

is life meant to be like tat for me? why is it tat everytime i gain hold of something tat thing must just leave me......I dun wan to be like tat... I want life to stay the same I want it to be the way i want it...I want to score good results but even when i strive hard i still gt a ruddy bad feeling about it...sometimes i just wish time would stop on the happiest day of my life... but i know tat is impossible..people say i talk cheemnology but i dun even feel tat i am talking like tat ...it is just wat i felt sometimes saboing people or seeing people getting saboed sure does hurt... I want to be less concerned to be a less of a busybody to be more of a sadist but the more i try the more i become the opposite...

only u gave me the inspiration of life, the only thing which ever made me feel so good and so loved...That present really touched my heart... The gift was something which i will appreciate for life...I will terribly miss you...but now i can't help but think...wat if I had told you before all this had happened? Would I be suffering heartbreak now or be even happpier than before

I want to tell my parents that sometimes you cannot keep on blaming me bro has to grow up...I know dad is trying but mum...haiz...bro is just goinna get more and more spoilt and the only person who can watc there helplessly is me...

finaly it came again but i dun wan it to go:(

2008-10-08T16:26:00.005+08:00

haha after so long it finally came again:) yay this month it was super duper random...u ah... go keep the surprise from me for so long...haha nvm but the waiting process was worth it...at least i get to appreciate yr effort:D it was simple and cute and very sweet haha=D
this will be a really short post lo coz firstly i am super busy mugging for acc(if u believe tat) and secondly, the long post will come tmr
happy second month dearest, hope u like the gift(or gifts) tat i bught for youlove ya and can't wait for tat day...even though it is still not decided on where yet haha...nvm...

I WILL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING FOR YOU:)

2008-09-21T21:42:00.002+08:00

Oceans apart, day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice, on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
how can we say forever

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here, waiting for you
Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh can't you see it baby,
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here, waiting for you
Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive, this romance
But in the end if I'm with you, I'll take the chance

Oh you can't see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go, whatever you do
I will be right here, waiting for you
Whatever it takes, or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

So baby you will know i will be right here waiting for you whereever you go, i will nvr forget you...gd luck for yr eoys and let us both study hard together:) those wishes and memories will never be forgotten...I LOVE YOU

2008-09-08T22:16:00.002+08:00

Short post to de-stress...So much pressure sia...ARGH...happy 1 month haha...hope u love the things i gave u
i treated the lollipops and that thing as the ones that you gave me haha...tat is why it melted in my heart...under your love...

hols ending...zzz...

2008-09-07T18:53:00.004+08:00

haha final post before i go back to study for exams will be on hiatus maybe unless i am feeling emo again then i will blog if not i doubt i will ever find the time to blog again...
so fast school hols going to end liao...it has been fun and memorable...haha this hols is prob a fun and tiring and stressed out hols...
left 2 more pages for lit guess i gotta finish it up but i think we shld hav until next week...pity the teacher who will mark mine coz he will be marking essays which are illegible...blame it on them for giving 20 pages...other than tat think i completed all my work? yay? haha...
chi chionged long ago...anyway thsi term only has 2 weeks so i pledge that i gotta keep myself as neat as possible...will try my best...so i will start to hav files and everything...amazing for my self.. thank you...
tat shld be all...was forced to update so here is the post...hope you love it:)

Thanks for that afternoon:)

2008-09-04T18:37:00.006+08:00

decided not to edit tat post as i was too tired or you can also say be too lazy maybe shall just do a quick post before i go back to mugging hols hw...haha...
wed was fun...had filecheck and all those stuff...after tat went to tm with you
studied until 5 i guess?... did not really do a lot as i think i slacked quite a bit haha
after tat went to the upper stories and helped to choose notebooks before going back home...
this morning was volley training think i did ok? first ball was some good some bad, realised my service got prob also as in it can go past but not correct method o.O
did art project at concourse afterwards haiz...our group is very lag can?think we did very slowly..oh well gotta chiong tmr...
suddenly the hols seem like they end too fast i dun wan to go back to school and hav eoys. And after that the nov dec hols. Though it may be something worth looking forward to, it can also be something to dread about...coz every min passes lessens the time i hav with you. Oh why does it hav to be so unfair. I can't bear to see you go but...
And so i will wait for you
knowing you will wait for me
and hope that time don't pass so quick
to give us more time to hav it slow:) love you forever:)

To someone special:
Pls dun bao yr sms again kays?
must learn how to control yrself
at least until the end of the year
then u can change plan
and hav unlimited
something you always wanted right?
The 2 lollipops u gave me, 1 has been eaten up, it was so sweet that it just melted in my heart...love ya:) haha love the choc i will giv you tmr too:)

2008-09-02T17:30:00.002+08:00

lol so fast i post 81 posts liao haha...hols are boring so much work>.<...shall just post a short post zzz....now training is ok lo my first ball still very bad...as in very very...ky improve loads yay jy to our libero haha...anyway shao hong and zheng kai finally came to training....SHAO HONG IF U ARE SEEING THIS PLS TAG:)
at least now i can block liao even though my arms and legs cramp at the end...but nvm la...now much better
went to pp after trg with kev ky and shao hong thanks for treating me to some of yr food though kevin is very concerned about his hygiene but he fed me a prawn! haha so cute, mrs orange dun be jealous hor...
later going sci tution... sianz...gonna be a lil boring and very interesting with a joker teacher haha...
zzz...short post maybe will edit later when i come back

2008-08-31T00:13:00.001+08:00

Nothing's impossible
Nothing's unreachable
When I am weary
You make me stronger
This love is beautiful
So unforgettable
I feel no winter cold
When we're together
When we're together

[ chorus ]
Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I belong
When the story gets told

When day turns into night
I look into your eyes
I see my future now
All the world and its wonder

This love wont fade away
And through the hardest days
I'll never question about us
You are the reason
My only reason

Will you stand by me
Hold on and never let me go
Will you stand by me
With you I know I belong
When the story gets told

I am blessed
To find what I need
In a world loosing hope
You're my only believe
You make things right
Everytime after time

Will you stand by me
Oh darling and never let me go
Will you stand...stand by me
will I'm be part of your life
When the story gets told

[ repeat chorus ]

Stand by me
No my darling say I want
you by my side
Say I need you here with me
Stand by me
for you my dear friend haha...l ove you

2008-08-29T19:33:00.002+08:00

lol today was teacher's day celebrations... rather boring at first such that i was reduced to the state of doing work but later it got more and more interesting... haha...me and tsz hin laughed at a number of teacher's day
but before tat arrived in school rather early and i went out to take a note for JX!!! haha jx tsk tsk:) and was chionging lit throughout the whole time before flag raising...sorry couldn't talk to you longer...in the end when i chiong finish i was late...but managed to catch up surprisingly coz almost everyone was late...o.o...
aces day was sick... me and yiliang and tsz hin(slightly) kept walking around and did sick and gay actions...haha i think i did the most :X....
ya well this year teacher's day performance is like super empty not many performances... was given early dismissal so i had nowhere to go...then i was contemplating to go to jx pri school but in the end decided against it when i realised bing ting was going back...so i just followed him... should not have gone haha embarrased myself of my personal standards i feel so bad...disgrace liao...:'( haha nvm....
went back home and got a pleasant surprise haha later went tm with gloria pearl shuk kan clareine johnathan and nigel...met them at mos burger...we ate lunch there and later when we were eating a lot of funny things happened...like SOME ppl saying hi to each other when they are only 2 seats away? RIGHT?:D pearl was of cuz doing a lot of sick actions...laughed like crazy there... johnathan was also very sick...VERY...haha then we kept disturbing each other...ate finish we went to toys r us like some small kids playing with almost anything we can find....i got hit by an elmo which is emo and had an emo eye...stpid elmo spread his disease to me...kept playing until a guy came and stared at us when we were playing with those toy hammers...i can swear i wasn't sick ok? i seriously wasn't i only read out the words stressing out certain syllabus haha...
later we went to some shop selling a lot of nice things...seriously a lot lah...almost everything is nice except for 1 thing...we 3 guys had to be the only guys in the shop.... we quickly backed out upon knowing tat haha...when 1 fat guy came in later then we go in... we were basically like window shopping...after all the things then we went to arcade...quite fun haha...me and nigel first round the b0ball combine for 99 after tat i gt a cold streak then 2nd round only 150 3rd round only gt 200 plus even though we tried haha...sorry nigel we shld hav extended our first round lead...
wanted to take neoprints but all the shops were close! wth...haha...after tat we just slacked at the pavement there slacking as nigel still owed us something... but later we all just went off after some funny stuff pity clareine left earlier before we took the neoprints she missed out some jokes...
later accompanied her to bus stop lor... then waited for her bus befor leaving slept on the bus woke up just 1 stop before and just in time too...left it and reached home... did physics ws and ate dinner before blogging...zzz tiring day...=.=
i so can't lokk forward to wednesday coz it willl be our day finally...haha... i love ya....

2008-08-28T21:26:00.002+08:00

it is all over... settled ok? dun wanna ever think about it...just get over it haha...
i still love you foever haha...
training now is slack...haha shocked i can jump 270cm. like 1 m taller than me haha... bet mervyn can reach 280...his jumping is super wth...

felt good anyway that i can smack the ball down haha and i suanned tsz hin at 1 lucky service which was like unbelievable he also couldn't believe it right tsz hin?:D

anyway thanks to someone who accomapnied me today for both the morning and recess i did nt mind that u needed to go off in the afternoon coz ater all u did not accompany them... I knwo your mum is scolding you real bad so gd luck ya?

tat shall be all gotta revitalise my chi file
loving you always and forever

2008-08-24T23:13:00.002+08:00

it gave me so much pain and the feeling finally came back...i could feel i was lonely lost in the world with no one to help me...no one to be there for me
i could never ever feel this way never but somehow it all came tumbling back to me...tat night just seemed so long every sec i tried to sleep seemed like a min and every min seemed like an hour...
when i saw the message the next morning,i was shocked as i did not expect this kind of message...i was expecting atypical reply thoughts flashed through my mind...could it be tat she had her phone seen? or could it be she ignored tat message...
when i was down and out and had no one to rely on you always came to me...now that you are gone everything just seems so far away... Your words are magical every time i hear them i would feel comforted...
but now suddenly u have not answered me for 1 whole night leaving me alone like this... the feeling is not one to be imagined...imagine u just suddenly let me fall like tat...
i could not sleep...until i drowned myself with 2 glasses of warm milk did the fatigue i had endured throughout the entire day get to me and made me fall asleep...
I do not blame you...instead i thank you...you have taught me the true meaning of life when u are suddenly chucked to your lowest point i needed to move on...i needed to learn how to carry on in life... as i told someone who was there for me for a while before he went to sleep...the sun still rise without waiting for you, the fishes still swim in the sea without caring whether you will catch them or not...i gotta move on in this world as the earth is still revolving around the sun...and i gotta chase the earth to keep on pace with it...
I finally understood the meaning of love having experienced the high and low of it...darling i jus twan you to know i still love you...those memories we shared will last forever and a lifetime...ily forever....

2008-08-22T23:56:00.002+08:00

sad.....not as in unhappy but more as in pity.......but nvm, today we both made up for yesterday poor time don't we? haha.......
had bio test and geog test this week think I did fairly ok? But everyone all wrote so long for Geog i keep seeing people asking for more pieces of paper and i was like wth?
now volley is slightly better hehe can only thunder the b boys net but i will crash into the net which ain't good anyway my first ball still is not very good lehs...maybe need to have time to control it lor...
studies it is both comical and yet serious greg is uber funny plus shirlyn and karwai keep puling all sorts of funny pranks i think i gonna be deaf with shirlyn voice? I Want A Very Good Ostrich...still can't forget that haha...cheng xiu also gone crazy...he testing out electricity by nicking some wires from the art room and combining it with batteries to test it out and let the plasticine melt wat and my poor tie now has gt gray stains thanks to him...
I don't wan to hav chem next year but it looks like i have got no choice...grrr i still can't stand susan low getting insulted by her ain't good at all
i am glad of the fun time we had today....
anyway i really love you ya? Haha... You will always remain forever in my mind no matter where you go

2008-08-16T14:38:00.002+08:00

i woke up today and finally understood to myself life has to go on, right? I guess i just have got to do better for the next 3 tests this week...thanks for your sms to me haha i woke up and saw it as i thought you were asleep already....hahas guess that you are the only motivation for me to study on and do better.... I can't wait for every thursday

2008-08-15T22:57:00.003+08:00

i now know why it is coz i really love you and i got the strong support of my buddies that is why i managed to persist on....My buddies stood strong by me and managed to pull me up when i need ed to have it the most... i could finally understand how they feel after so long ya i will nvr forget the promises we made together...i think you should be sleeping now...it is coz i hav tat strong desire to fulfill my wish that is why i am with you...

2008-08-15T21:42:00.002+08:00

it is hurting when u get humiliated like a white person to a black i had never felt tat way all my life...until well today...
wat she has done to me has left a permanant scar in my life...something which i have studied hard for all gone to vain like tat...
if it wasn't for the help of some ppl i don't think i could ever stand...
since u hav humiliated me i will be sure to prove you wrong... you nearly caused me to fall down and never get up
anyway interclass gt thrashed feel bad abt it? but nvm lesson learnt...
short post la coz the more i blog the more i dun feel like was being forced to haha...
susan low i am gonna make sure u are gonna regret this day the humiliation u have caused me is unbearable...

2008-08-15T21:29:00.000+08:00

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go? You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

[Bridge]

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is & it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

[Bridge]

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

[Chorus]

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

[Bridge]

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be

Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

[Chorus]

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

2008-08-13T20:14:00.002+08:00

changed skin long time ago now changing song too haha specially dedicated to the person who had been with me through thick and thin haha...glad to hav u as a fren noeing you will always be there for me:D
Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live
Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive
Because you live, I live, I live

2008-08-13T18:44:00.002+08:00

gonna post now before i go back to studying...just played basketball...zzz... can't shoot well at all... my paint moves can't save my neck now... shooting percentage down to like 30-40%? Can forget about going to use 3-points to my advantage but well...but the good news is i can jump super high now...i am like shocked...wth? I can touch the board at my house now..usually is with much difficulty...maybe coz i never played for like 6 months at there? Hahas... anyway these few days have felt quite happy but at the same time understanding...dunno why...haha...
maybe coz seeing you makes me happy? Haha...
anyway back to thinking about it...maybe it was nt such a bad thing after all...but i dun wan to noe wat happens when it is all exposed and found out...trying to treasure every moment... once you are gone, it is all left me alone at chung cheng... you were right i just gotta study harder and excel too ya? haha...hope to see you when we ae in jc
may we never fall apart...

2008-08-08T18:27:00.011+08:00

i rarely post this early do i? haha...

Anyway today was cross-country...yay gt two trophies haha...the team trophy and the individual one...SIAN...gt asthma halfway and kept walking running the second half...I was breathing with only half of wat i can breathe...(So no of amt i can breathe/ no of amt that normal ppl breathe)x1/2=25% of wat u guys breathe...Wth...but ok la gt 5th...highest i could go was 2nd...the 1st guy too fast liao he own the whole race lehs...wth...

after tat i messaged SOMEONE right but tat person nvr reply...so i was thinking of another day perhaps...but then so qiao haha i saw tat person at tm...so coincidental sia... ate lunch at the food court at tm the nafter tat slacked with them...tsz hin and kev was just listening to music...but later we went to lan for a while...zhi han loves to shoot his own teammate wth i see him always hit his own teamates the head so mnay times...then he did a dam sly tactic he went oh my mouse is not working then when I look at his screen he go shoot me...=.=...

btw i am still super frustrated at henry the truth is everytime they wan to talk to you you run away and ask us to tell u tat u are not here...is this even fair? And you have to go and ask other ppl coz it is YOU tat cannot come and they already sent you the slides why did you not mention tat huh? sometimes, you should go think over is it really amd fault? everyone lit marks will get the same it is only how you do it...do u think the rest of the group will wan to get full marks? of cuz they do this is not only your marks this is their marks if you can;t spare a thought for other ppl dun go insult them...
haha today was a really nice day:P agree with you though hope to get past one day at a time as i slowly go past time...

2008-08-06T23:13:00.002+08:00

if u hear this song, you will understand
i never thought i had feel this way
and if i should ever go away
close your eyes and try
to feel the way we do
keep smiling keep shining
knowing you can always count on me
that is wat friends are for?
for good times for bad times
I will be on your side forever more
for the times when we are apart
close your eyes and love
with the words that is coming from my heart
and then if you can remember
the things we ever did
I reckon only you will be able to understand...coz you were there when i was down and helpless, emo and frustrated, happy and jovial...

2008-08-06T23:10:00.003+08:00

Baby you're so beautifulAnd when I'm near you I can't breatheA girl like you gets what she wantsWhen she wants itYou're so out of my league (Out of my league)I show you no emotionDon't let you see what you're doing to me (Don't let you see babe)I imagine the two of us togetherBut I've been living in realityFear of rejection, kept my love insideBut time is running outSo damn my foolish prideChorus:I don't care if you think I'm crazy (Crazy)It doesn't matter if it turns out bad (I don't care)I've got no fear of losing youYou can't lose what you never hadNow I'm gonna confess that I love you (Love you)I've been keeping it inside (Inside)Feeling I could dieNow if you turn away, baby that's ok At least we'll have a momentBefore you say goodbyeYou can't lose what you never had(Ohhh)Rules are made for breaking(Breaking)Nothing ventured, nothing gainedI'll be no worse off than I am right nowAnd I might never get the chance againBabyFear of rejection, kept my love insideI told my heart I didn't want you but I liedChorus:I don't care if you think I'm crazy (I'm crazy)It doesn't matter if it turns out bad (Matter if it turns out bad)I've got no fear of losing you You can't lose what you never had(Yeah)Now I'm gonna confess that I love you (I love you)I've been keeping it inside (Inside)Feeling I could die (I could die)Now if you turn away, baby that's okAt least we'll have a momentBefore you say goodbye (Before you say goodbye)Here on the outside looking in (Lookin in)Don't wanna stay dreamingAbout what could have beenI need to hear you speak my nameEven if you shoot me down in flamesChorus:I don't care if you think I'm crazy (I don't care baby)Doesn't matter if it turns out bad (If it turns out bad)I've got no fear of losing you You can't lose what you never hadI'm gonna confess that I love you (I wanna confess)I've been keeping it inside (That I love you girl)Feeling I could die Now if you turn away baby that's okAt least we'll have a momentBefore you say goodbyeYou can't lose what you never hadYou can't lose what you never had(repeat til fade)
Hope fully i will be like tat when the time comes eh?

2008-08-06T23:06:00.003+08:00

Aspirations will only become a reality if i work for it but what is the proof that it goes out the way you want it to be? This fri is the big day and i still haven't thought it through yet...less than 48 hours to even decide...

2008-08-06T23:03:00.002+08:00

Is it even that hard to get no 1 for something? I wan to be the first but I just can't .... can we still be friends or not? Why am I just not that good in something which i don't wan it to be but i also want it to be? Why did I not agree to lend the geography worksheet? Lots of things to ponder about...guess this year would be a rather quiet year for me....

2008-08-06T23:02:00.003+08:00

it may be easy to get over certain things but certain things I just can't get over with it... I hopethat one day i will get to achieve big things but it will forever remain a dream...or will it not? Those messages seem to be touching thru my heart...

2008-08-06T22:59:00.004+08:00

I don't even want to do it but the pressure is just too much for me...too much gravity is co-existing inside me...it keeps pushing me down...why does the earth have gravity? I just want to float away but is there even a single care in this world that allows me too? Floating is something which I can only dream about...why do I feel this way for you...i dun even wan it to happen

2008-08-06T22:57:00.003+08:00

but i also won't know what i am thinking...no one does... the pressure is just too immense too great... I really wan to study hard I am trying hard to...but is that even possible? i just can't leep up with your pace...i cannot do a lot of things...you dun see me get no 1 in anything do you? It is just oh so hard to climb to the peak eh? i keep sliding down with no support i think i love you or do i not?

2008-08-06T22:54:00.003+08:00

Why is it so hard to do or say anything? I dun understand why u do that is it really good calling people tat? Sometimes, I wish i was just a normal kid, a kid who does not feel anything and hav lots of friends but tat is impossible eh? You are just too far away for my grasp...I really dunno wat to say....do i have to be like that forever...and it is just too hard for me to feel angry

2008-08-02T21:16:00.004+08:00

i realise i hav been too emo this has got to stop...I don;t even know why i am like tat...sometimes, letting go just seems so hard...when i saw yr blog i felt guilty was it referring to me? I noe I should nvr have been like tat...Maybe coz of friendship tat is why we get so close but I can;t rmb the last time u tagged my blog this year...and when u tag his blog my heart broke
Maybe all this wouldn't hav happened i noe i should never have done tat...this is all my fault...I am to blame for all this...I am trying my best to smile a good one trying to smile and laugh like the rest I don't even know wat hav i become to...
i need the warmth and care of ppl...I don't wan to make you sad...I try my best to help ppl but when it comes to nought My heart feels oh so pain
I have seen the other side of the world probably a lot more than u would expect me to see to be humiliated at primary school was never a good thing to do...

2008-08-01T23:08:00.000+08:00

I just can't seem to do it...but i must...appearing joyful and jovial on the outside is nt gonna do me any good....i need something...something to boost and speed up my life so that i can get these probs over with

2008-08-01T23:04:00.003+08:00

but is this right for me to do? will i ever regret this decision...each passing day is slowly inching across...i feel the pressure the weight just like tat falling on me........Studies,homework, love life
suddenly pretending seems so hard to do...I cannot put on tat face i put on when i see you anymore...the pressure is just too great......

2008-08-01T22:50:00.003+08:00

maybe i shouldn't have done all these...maybe i should not even have started it...maybe i should not even have done this done that...but it is too late for regrets...as the lyrics go
i can't breathe when my heart is broken too
you are not gone but you are not here is that the way
coz baby
i dun wanna fight no more i forgot what we were fighting for and it slowly as it seems in my heart
and i don;t wanna have to try
and the only dream i had is being with you
But it will forever remain a dream...excerpts from the song u are listening:D

2008-08-01T22:48:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just feel so bad...i noe i shouldn't have done this i noe i shouldn't hav done tat but no matter wat i do it is pointless... Is it tat hard to lead a normal life? I just wan to get u so tightly that i am holding it too long...now that everybody noes wat is the point of telling?

2008-07-31T23:10:00.000+08:00

sian posting again...hah being lame here...... i trying to do physics dun bother cheering me on coz it might have been over when u messaged me... shld i feel happy for him or nt? he has finally fulfilled one of life's greatest problems.....while we seem o be always togther...i sometimes dunno if i am on the same par with him...try as i might i nvr can...we just seemed so far and so close...no words can ever describe this utterly complicated realationship

2008-07-31T23:03:00.002+08:00

sian today was a bad day...napfa only gt 29 points.....GRRRR...... shall be a reallly short post
i really wan to tell you that if i choose any of you pls dun be upset......
yaya maybe might nt be a short post....volley i suck sia.........cannot spike properly dunno why....
maybe i shldn't hav liked you if not things won't be that complicated
ya now my studies is a mess sia.....did nt meet any of my expectations......:(
were u really laughing or do u really like me?
ok this looks a really short post coz i see very short one line paragraphs
i really hope to get it settled soon
think that shall be all ba
i
feeling short today haha
think
shall just train on my leg strength so tat pe can get tat extra 2 cm........
i
stupid tsz hin do 250
really
his shuttle run is also gay 9.5 wtf?
love
=.= i feel so wth now...nvm
you

2008-07-30T21:39:00.002+08:00

Today was quite tough in fact this whole week has been...i feel so stressed up... anyway i love charisma today mr ahmad drew a picture of everyone made me so touched...

when i saw this pic he drew of me i was super touched haha first time sia someone draw me running i rarely even see tat la...think i will keep this pic with me forever...

i and e has been interesting honestly mr kennard is like 9129847182903657856104567 times better than mr hussein... his lessons are much funnier...

shitz gonna be a bankrupt now.... left so little money again.... ga.... dam...

i will never forget those times we share yes they may be short but i still dun care...in my heart u will always nvr be forgotten... u are the one who made the world so bright to me but i dun seem to fulfill my wishes.... gd luck to me........

2008-07-27T10:20:00.002+08:00

I wished so many things had not happened...they are really starting to fall back on me i cannot bear with this stress any longer... I have to stop myself..why just when i thought i had cleared my thoughts this had to happen?Why do I have to be hit with such a heavy obstacle? Why? I feel like crying already maybe it is all my fault i should not have been told to be with you.......ARGH............I deserve to be like tat.........maybe it was fate? But for now I have learnt, no matter what I do, I can never win your heart...:'(

2008-07-25T09:17:00.002+08:00

haha posting in school now supposed to have english but well everybody is slacking..haha...shall just emo a bit here.... a bit la...vent my these 4 days the frustrations haix i dunno why la...so troubled... i have even started not to write too many things here...it is scary just to think of how some ppl can apparantly use that as a weapon against me...
haix now i am confused i have already decided on what i should do i think or what ishould really do maybe for the good of myself and getting this load off my chest...really glad u tagged... haha...i see so many people already telling Their girl but what about me? Am I destined to be lonely forever or what? I think I have made a decision for myself and I think I will achieve it if u are ever reading this, I hope u do tag (again?) coz I really appreciate it…To you I have given myself two weeks to know more about you…either that or it is case closed between us..I cannot ear with this longer…Can’t we even chat a little bit?(P.S this might not be a girl) I hope we can be what we used to be…those memories will never be forgotten even though u won’t visit this blog)

2008-07-20T22:20:00.001+08:00

got past the whole of this week with tests tests and more tests...zz..dun even noe how i gt thru all tat...felt so scrwed up after each one...looking back at my mistakes i realise how foolish i was how stupid i was, made a whole bunch of mistakes in the chi test something which i told myself i cannot make...maths test wrote the formulaes wrong...sianzzz...still gt chem ws to do...should i do or nt? maybe i will just to waste time
injured my wrist... now much better liao
i hate my shooting form in basketball...it is rusty until u can ask the dsa ppl who come to cch for trials and the ywould have shot a ton better than i could...nt been playing for like 4 months? Maybe tat is why things are like tat...
eng project has nt been going well too sometimes i wish tat i can understand wat is the meaning of all these i wish i didn't have the outer ear so it wouldn't eliminate the feedback and produces sound waves then i wouldn't have to hear his voice..is tat reall ywat he thinks of me? i tried so hard for the grp but no one ever appreciated it...i am prepared to get damn low for my peer assessment...why? coz i failed at the most critical moment the most defining moment where i could have either shone up to the heavens or dropped down to the hell...is it my fault or wat?or is it u?
class tee is ready already the colour is black and girls and boys will be different at the back...really liked some of the designs there... BY THE WAY IT COSTS 18 DOLLARRS pls rmb to pay the money to sueanne
sometimes everything just seems so bleak i am in a very confused state now why are u purposely avoiding my gaze after the mon incident i feel that everything has changed between us...life will never be the same again though you will never read this blog maybe thsoe rumours have spread to yr head but i just wan u to know that i love u ...the second part u go find yrself somewhere in between all these posts

2008-07-13T16:37:00.001+08:00

1 whole week has gone past dun even noe how i get thru it next week it will be evn worse like 4 tests in 1 week, eng geog maths chi, sian i dun even noe wat to do... priority problem....this week was basically inter-class, against it we lost could hav won lar but the ting hong was gd he kept saving tsz hin and kevin smack and serve keep on aiming xin ying and i hav to help her cover think must have injured my hand somehwere during the match quite serious blood was lke coming out as i stained my fingernails but we somehow lacked coodination...emo and disappointed with the team and myself lar, never treasure my service at all... hit the net>.<
but i still was emo over the fact that i did nt go to the training as a team but more of a sole player, is tat wat i am meant for or wat? i felt so hurt when everybody left me it brought me memories of ytd which i can't believe i even cried after the it match why did i even do that? i felt so guilty, it was all my fault if my service had gone past, if i had covered xin ying properly, we wouldn't be at that stage where we were trailing by a lot... so on thurs i strived to train myself up before the big match against hm one that would decide our fate...i felt we needed to work as a team but somehow it is easier said than done... but i still can't come to the fact that why am i doing this? I am nt a captain at all, why shld i see the need to bond the team? BUt why am i still hampered by questions...

Now,back to the hm match...glad to say all my service went over...sorry sze min gloria and clareine, keep aiming my service at u all>.<
but it was time for me to be slightly emo again when i wanted a full team handshake nt a captain to hm handshake....felt so... and when you did nt say good match to me when u said tat to kevin and tsz hin in front of me i felt hurt, it was my fault wasn't it? i am the person uare referring to right? In wat way have i disappointed you?
Later was about to go home when sueanne and amanda kept calling me asking me to buy chocolate...parted with 2 bucks to buy one after tat had nt much money liao...only like 70 cents thanks to tsz hin buying the chocolate from me? counted all my 5-cent coins...pro eh?? anyway i still cannot forget the block XD...first time i managed to do that usually most ppl in the match would just push the ball over.....thanks to the sec 2 girls for cheering our class though...really boosted our morale...hahas...felt really happy with the team and with what the seniors had to say to me...they seemed to be happy but i dun like their pushing the blame spirit... they should not have blamed it on him it wasn't his fault either it is nobody's fault or everyone's fault...one for all, all for one right?
Studying geog now...gah never bring geog tb home gotta rely on notes and edulearn...think shouold at least do some target settings for myself
Maths 19/20 yaya i noe i am aiming high but i believe i can do it:)
Geog 12/15 quite high marks for me but i can achieve it if i have determination
Chi 75/100 ya quite low coz i focused the least on that sub so....
Eng 65 percent? coz i dunno the marks scheme and graded marks

Dam super confused now…I told someone whom I really liked first time I ever said ya? The feeling was kinda…mixed…but now I feel bad….only someone will understand and to tat mysterious person thanks for keeping all my secrets these past few months…when I was down, emo, u still stood up for meJ
Sometimes I just wish you and me would even talk? D we even have that chance? Instead of brushing past each other, can’t we just say a hi or something? Thinking back, it was wrong for me to not want to look to you in the eyes but do u noe how I felt? Most propably, u are never going to tag my blog but tat feeling, so indescribable….but gotta study first, as tsz hin is learning from me get the results THEN get the girl:D good luck to mdians we shall thrash cr…Haha

2008-07-04T22:01:00.001+08:00

sorry ppl i didn't wan you all to noe some things so i just put everything in korean

interclass volleyball coming soon liao...eager and looking forward to it hope we can win and do our class proud...we wan to own...but is tat even possible? So many things are possible any conclusion can be made... the most impt thing is we achieve it:)...other md ppl who are nt playing must also come down to giv support also hor:) show our class spirit unlike shao hong who claims that our class has no team spirit... as long as we win our first 2 matches can liao the last match we can just walk thru it coz cr gt no volleyball ppl... jyjy ppl:D i trying hard to improve also..hope to succeed...right now got so many things unclear hope the cloud can settle soon...

studies have been quite reasonable... parents came to school ytd so that they can talk about my failing subjects (art? and geog ya)... learnt a lot of things about how my parents were thinking... dang...almost dio saboed by susan low she saw them but didn't walk up to them even though she intends to... escaped first time unscathed...will there even be a second time? hope not... i must prove her wrong:D

volleyball have been good and bad... at least i don't get daoed by them:) but unfortunately, the name on my jersey still creates laughter amongst everyone... not been slacking run 5 rounds on thurs and 6 rounds on fri... and still felt reasonably ok... but now come back home very tired...i wan to be good and be noticed by everyone but is that even possible?

busybodies do not bother reading...pls... i do not want ppl to disturb me... i sincerely feel that only true friends should read...

haix my love life is in a twirl now... do i still love her as much as before? Is this considered flirting? i rmb how i always suan my grandfather on being very flirty but am i like him? i noe tat mysterious person will never ever read my blog and i noe she will nvr see this post, probably she does not even noe i exist... i have seen her twice after term started... and she gives the same feelings as compared to her... Do i love you or you? Am i able to remain loyal? Or is it probably coz a best friend could even be considered your love? rmb wat mr ahmad said that a oy and girl can hardly be best friends as they might fall for each other unexpectedly... could the same thing befall me?
I can't manage my own life even probably i should not even manage other ppl life...my heart is aching now and i got no one to help me mend it... my bro will maybe need some times to understand a breakup my parents will, i guess never understand me but i need someone to hold on to...someone whom i can share weal and woe with...guess tat has gotta wait... maybe when i have grown older and matured much more like goddad...
Maybe tsz hin was right after all...i am an emo bastard... i can never get over things easily and i can't let go of something...sigh...Guys will never understand me girls might but how do u expect me to confess everything to a girl...

2008-06-09T23:00:00.000+08:00

Recently so many things to do but so little time...i still gt pw now...gah...can't believe it...anyway to soravee i have found possibly every single thing tat i said abt u and deleted it...o.o anyway volley was nt cool...no time to emo...sianzzz...too busy than the chicken was the worst but the stingray was the best damn nice...sadly only gt a few... really nothing much to write abt anyway to all those who had tagged my blog, thanks, and to i realli emos(note the s) if u wan to tag my blog tag nicely u broke the many rules of my blog =.= a no life person kinda reminds me of the marigold book the half-life these i realli emos have gt seriously no mum....exposed to much more radiation such that their no life is 0 oo.o read tat book too much liao now kinda addicted.... just beiing lame...:p

p.s i wrote this post damn long ago but did nt wan to post until the i realli emos came out then i decided to post...

2008-06-06T22:40:00.001+08:00

ok i realised that my last post is really way too emo liao...thanks to those ppl who comforted me...and to those who do nt i can see wat a friend u have been to me...all yr fake comforting when i was nt emo...

anyway today was volleyball... i learnt my lesson...my chest is godly...the ball i jie can go up so well...really surprised...anyway i realised my setting very inconsistent...such that i cannot set well sometimes and it is really bad...service well basically just still suck...

haha i suddenly become nt emo today...o.O...really surprised...i go playground also feel nothing liao...wanted to go bugis with them...but bcoz of some matters could nt go...sorry ppl...i saw shao hong face and i was really touched...it brought back memories for me when shao hong used to nt scold me...really touched ya...

HAHA tat shall be all signing off now!!! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE