I realised something seriously wrong about me. I just cannot trust anyone...and i basically mean everyone...sometimes i use lies to cover up for my mistake but sometimes i have to let it get exposed...i dunno why u never reply to my sms but wateva it is, u hav really caused me in deep shit...u noe wat u hav done but i won't pursue it...but i felt pain at first u noe..when i heard u laughing...it gives me the impression tat u are purposely avoiding it...you know your high pitch laughter can very easily give u away...i have known your characters but i still cannot trust u...i kept thinking wild thoughts to myself... i felt misery and anger...





When can i hav a day whn it does not nid to be me who is so angry or suspecting everyone? I wan to be happy again...not be a dull guy... ihate myself for tat but somehow it is not only u...everyone else gives me the impression tat i cannot trust them but i want to......




Feeling tumultuous at the moment...