maybe gunning my hopes were just far too much
maybe i should have waited a little longer
but the truth really hurts i tried to improve i swear i tried but then when it was told i just stood rooted to the spot not wanting to talk much
i just can't understand it why? if it was him i don't mind but it had to be him...Why him?
I tot i was better than him i tot i could do things better then him but just as it all turns out like my academic results
i tried so hard but everything was to just fail like tat.. it is very disappointing... I don't even know why i am trying so hard. I do most things where most ppl choose to not do... I choose a unique path but it looked to somehow backfire on me
i am afraid i cannot hold on so long it is just too hard for me to stay to it...try as i might but everytime i try harder it gets worse...Maybe doing more than what is needed is bad...
Maybe i should have given up long ago...
Maybe I should have done this matter to my own hands...
Maybe I could salvage it like tat
Maybe if i tried to
Or should it be if i had not wanted to?
Oh please let it be a nice sweet dream or an evil one
So tat when i wake up i realise it will be gone
I also get to sleep it off
and I still get another chance
to have my wish finally fulfilled
and not to see it
shatter into a million pieces
and make me feel horrible with myself
and make me terrified of myself
fear to take another step
fear to put in all my best
fear to have a dream...
I hope to be still in lumberland
when all things could just end
and i could be a happy guy
having a good experienced sleep
Labels: Maybe it was all meant to be a dream a nice sweet dream for me to sleep it off