ok now on the post i promised by today....things recently have nt been good at all...i feel so vexed and troubled with no one to lean on to...after wat ky told me i am seriously scared and it means very scared nt just scared...my heart is pounding in fear nt helped by some of my classmates....i appreciate the help guys but i feel that i need more time...things...just doesn't seem the way it is... I recently keep going to the playground at my mom office and think to myself on what happened recently that could have dragged me into this mess...my mind is spinning like crazy...I look to be very cheerful in front of my parents so that they won't suspect me of anything but somehow...things get worse and worse...all i want is just a simple life and i would be very satisfied already but will things ever be like tat for me? My mind says to myself to continue but i fear that i just don't have enough energy to continue....
my values in life are very simple just trust, loyalty, have friends and uphold equality.something which i think is hard to find... i know no one can ultimately treat the other equally but i need someone who can trust me...someone who is willing to treat me and everyone equally if i t was my fault i would accept the punishment but sometimes it isn't my fault and u(u noe who u are) just plan to take the blame on me and him....is it fair for the both of us? There will never be tat kind of thing in the world but at least believe in the fact that u shld treat the innocents one equally... if u do not find out who the guilty one is pls do noy punish the innocent ones...and to tat someone who keeps pushing the blame in our class i tried tolerating you live with you peacefully but if u continue to be like tat i am really gonna vent all my anger on you? I know you have your mum to protect u but it doesn't mean she can protect u forever...
you should noe yourself zhi han just because u can argue once doesn't mean u can argue twice or thrice...
The second thing is trust...you promise something u adhere to it...some ppl just cannot fulfill that... and it gets me really emo...i noe it ain't yr fault sometimes it may just be a slip of mind but u imagine when i go to yr blog and suddenly read yr blog abt how happy u were guess how i would feel....
i shall not brood over the rest as i have basically emptied my fuel on the first two already...tat is wat you shld nt learn from me at all. You start fast in the end u cannot complete the race...
Now things in volleyball have recently been good and i really hope it stays that way...I am trying to improve but somehow it just doesn't seem to be enough...to catch up with the rest of you...studies wise i have to learn how to control my bro he is seriously getting out of hand playing like crazy without studying even though he claims he does...
I have tried so hard must everything go down like this?sometimes it just seems my enough is never enough...i fear yourreply but i also dun wan to noe coz the most importantly is i dun wan my heart to break
- u were great boy thanks for helping me but i need you to understand that i just need more time and understanding
- hope the friendship in hm really works out...iseemore and more ppl getting emo and realise that deep down our class are nt tat bad compared to other classes
- thanks to you buddy for being there with mewhen iwas emo and acting as my chu qi ttiongi really appreciate there
- i decided to tell you but i guessi gotta wait until after i have stabilised my life currently my life is in a twirl
- i saw yr personal message and i was thinki8ng wat u meant u are a good person pls dun let me affect you...i dun wan the same thing to happen to all the other rest who are in a relationship...
- i dun mind tat i was nt invited for yr b-day but i regretted seeing it just 5 mins after i had previosuly seeing yr blog thus i would like to wish u a happy b-day here even though u might nt noe who u are...always remember that i will be there as a friend for you...
- the rest applies for you...i am used to being a chu qi tong so i do nt mind if i continue to be one...my only greatest wish is tat u all treat me like a friend
- i suddenly appreciate the loyalty shown from some ppl especially ppl like henry but i tend to sometimes hear u mutter some things abt other ppl or me i hope u would stop it as it does nt help u or me
- thanks for listening to all those emo smses...even though we are nt in the same class but i am glad u were still there for me as a friend
- pls do not suan me on this post as i just vented almost everything in my heart...ok..maybe i only vented one-third of it...but still...nvm...
- i now clarify again...i would like to thanks you for listening to those emo smses u for listening to my emoness during the convo and especially you for calling me and listening to the troubles...i noe it is tiring for you and u get really frustrated sometimes...and things must have been thought differently for the both of us... and you for advicing me and such that we both became confidantes for each other...:D
- this song is dedicated to all those who stood by me(you know who u are) edited by me westlife seasons in the sun i took only a small portion of it but hope ya understand
- to my bro u just nid to study hard and u can play like u wan u are a smart kid in fact much smarter than me just male use of yr intellgence well...
Here is to you my trusted friends
we´ve known each other since we
were in chung cheng high
together we´ve climbed thru obstacles
learned of love and knowledge
touched our hearts
grazed feelings
to all my friends i love you
when all the birds are singing
in the sky
now that spring is in the air
friends are everywhere
think of me and i´ll be there
we had joy we had fun we had
help from each other
but the troubles that we climbed were
ust never forgotten
This post shall be all quizzes...next post then i post emo stuff...Let me see...so much quizzes to do...sianzzz...well to just kill boredom let me start with the first quiz as tagged by gloria
A. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any questions that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
B. Tag 10 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.
1. What do you think an ideal best friend should be like?
Someone who can understand me well and wish me a happy b-day with these i will be happy liao:D
2. If you have a dream come true, what would it be?
to score good results
to do well in volleyball
and to say i love you to you and praying u will accept me
3. Who's life would you want to takeaway most?
no one life is meant to be the way it is just gotta accept it i guess?
4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
get as much tution and playing time in the world study hard and play hard
5.Do you like this quiz?
OK lar, coz i very sian if not will definitely tuo dao bu zhi dao shen me shi hou
6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
being loved by someone whom i love
7. Can you whistle?
Ya, i often do it after exams when the teacher is collecting scripts
8. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
as long as i dun get emo after wat u say anything will make me happy
9. Do you believe in ghosts?
in a way ya...
10. If the person you like secretly is already attached, what would you do?
i would tell that person but i won't tell her i want to be her just tell her that i like her...
11. How would you see yourself in 10 years' time?
someone who is able to not be emo and have a gf by that time(I am 24 by then!!!)
12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
Hmm, family, friends, enemies(coz without them life is no use) and ZHI HAN!!!
13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
a v-ball crazy get a little too high but too clever liao like to use three times wat most people do :P:P:P
14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
Married but poor
15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
read newspaper? Ya, become habit liao used to it since i was 9..but only the sports section:D:D:D
16. What does your favourite kind of shampoo smells like?
It smells like shampoo!
17. How would you rate the perfection of you life now?
2/10 not achieving wat i planned to achieve and not doing well in almost everything...
18. What type of people do you hate?
Backstabbers
People to do the quiz!
1.Tsz Hin
2.Jun Xiang
3.Kevin
4.Henry
5.Kah Yong
6.Pu yin(revive yr blog lar...so dead...)
7.Hui Xian
8.Jia Wei
9.Kang Ning
10.Sueanne
11(MUST DO).JOSHUA
Second quiz by Jx
10 random facts about myself
#1 I am not gay
#2 I hate getting backstabbed
#3 I love arsenal supported it since i was 5
#4 I hate manchester united:p
#5 I get rather emo at times....wish i hadn't done certain things...
#6 I am in volleyball
#7 I was in track and firld when i was in sec 1
#8 I hate people keeping their blogs private
#9 I sometimes get high during tution
#10 I love going to tampines mall...Haha...biggest mall near my house wat
NO ONE TO TAG...SO KIND OF ME
Third quiz by JX again...
Name 15 people who comes to your mind immediately. Do not look at questions until you have selected the 15.
1.Jun Xiang
2.Tsz Hin
3.Kevin
4.Gloria
5.Sueanne
6.Bing Xin
7.Amanda
8.Cheng Xiu
9.Henry
10.Kang Ning
11. Jia Wei
12.Jafie
13.Yi Liang
14.Mervyn
15.Brenda
Describe 14.Mervyn
Emo quiet my camp mate so learnt a lot about him...quite wise
What would u do if u never met 3?Kevin
Hmmm, won't be so sick?
Who is 13 to you?Yi liang
Just another big-sized guy who is uber pro at maths
If 8 confesses to you that he/she likes you what would you do?Cheng Xiu
Nah he is still too young... and most probably he will go after the zhi!!!:D
And if 9 likes 8 how would u solve the problem?
I don't see that as a problem at all...
Who is 1 to you? Jun Xiang
a badminton pro who can get as emo as me:D
Would you ever date 2? Tsz Hin
Maybe not considering he is too flirty...:p
Who do you like better 13 or 2?
hmmm i think it would be 2 coz he noes much more about me...
Describe 15. Brenda
super pro in eng but art get u o.o
4, 5 and 7 are in a love triangle. How would you break them up? Gloria Sueanne Amanda
Woah all girls...unless the country starts to allow les marriage i won;t bother putting my hands in these affairs
Would u allow 6 and 10 to date?
Erm Ya no objections if both pt like each other
Do you like 11?
Ya as a friend only, nothing much...
Is 14 single?
No, he already has Brenda
Describe your feelings if you ever saw 1 naked Jun Xiang
I would never coz he is too protective of his own body
10 and 14 are bitter enemies. How possible is that?Kang Ning, Mervyn
Nah doubt it both are on good terms with each other
13 and 12 are dating. 2 is very jealous of them. Would you help 2 to break them up? Jafie, Yi liang Tsz Hin
IMPOSSIBLE yi liang and jafie are too much of a height diff secondly tsz hin dun get jealous coz he has many other ppl...after him? O.o...
What is 12's biggest fear?Jafie
Dunno never asked
Do you have feelings for 2? Tsz Hin
Friendship only lar
Do you have feelings for 1? Jun Xiang
Friendship also...
Should be done on all my quizzes...signing off but maybe emo post coming at tmr or tonight see when i have the time...
YL 
