sian...posting again coz i feel that my feelings are too bottled up gotta release it some time...i sometimes feel that why can't i live life happily? I see more and more peopel getting emo and in my mind i am thinking...why is it that we can't just take life positively? Has it got anything to do with our emotions? At least u have someone to rely on when u ppl fall down...I have nobody when i am
falling...
falling...
and falling again...
is life meant to be that way for me? Or am i really destined to be like tat?
for the first time in my blogging post, i am stuck...and i mean very stuck...all my life i have always aimed to be one of the best and this year i am suddenly going to be the worst without realising it...
Fri training was ok...the b boys for the first time did nt reallylook down on me... I felt a rush of gratitude rushing thru me but all this was to be gone when it was playing match time... none of use felt like going but i could see chen rui face when he left he specifically told us to come and we just didn't go without even telling him...is this called repaying of gratitude? I felt so guilty... and the worst of all...regret...this could be their final straw where i have disappointed them...sorry to the 3 otehr sec 2s i bear no offence and respect yr decision and u are free to do watevr u all like and i can only obey as i am a junior...
i was just chatting with someone last night and we somehow chatted until we reach this definition:What is love? we found out that many diff ppl ha diff perspectives and tat is why there are so many upsets in this world...i also told tat person something and i hope that it is nt shocking and tat may be jus tthe way i am, k?
i feel that i have changed in my thoughts of perspective... i have suddenly find myself in a funny world...one where i never take centre stage but instead become the bystanders where i get to find out a lot of things...and jx or kev if u see this post, can pls call me? thanks...
i feel like telling you how i feel about you but i still lack the courage and we just turned out to have no fate...maybe i should really just follow tsz hin...we seem to be stuck on the same road except his is really kept known but mine is not...i try to be like darry but i just can't but i also can't be johnny...so which character in the outsiders is really the best???

Labels: i find our distance getting closer and yet further...i really wish u could have just come online or are u purposely avoiding me?