1 whole week has gone past dun even noe how i get thru it next week it will be evn worse like 4 tests in 1 week, eng geog maths chi, sian i dun even noe wat to do... priority problem....this week was basically inter-class, against it we lost could hav won lar but the ting hong was gd he kept saving tsz hin and kevin smack and serve keep on aiming xin ying and i hav to help her cover think must have injured my hand somehwere during the match quite serious blood was lke coming out as i stained my fingernails but we somehow lacked coodination...emo and disappointed with the team and myself lar, never treasure my service at all... hit the net>.<
but i still was emo over the fact that i did nt go to the training as a team but more of a sole player, is tat wat i am meant for or wat? i felt so hurt when everybody left me it brought me memories of ytd which i can't believe i even cried after the it match why did i even do that? i felt so guilty, it was all my fault if my service had gone past, if i had covered xin ying properly, we wouldn't be at that stage where we were trailing by a lot... so on thurs i strived to train myself up before the big match against hm one that would decide our fate...i felt we needed to work as a team but somehow it is easier said than done... but i still can't come to the fact that why am i doing this? I am nt a captain at all, why shld i see the need to bond the team? BUt why am i still hampered by questions...

Now,back to the hm match...glad to say all my service went over...sorry sze min gloria and clareine, keep aiming my service at u all>.<
but it was time for me to be slightly emo again when i wanted a full team handshake nt a captain to hm handshake....felt so... and when you did nt say good match to me when u said tat to kevin and tsz hin in front of me i felt hurt, it was my fault wasn't it? i am the person uare referring to right? In wat way have i disappointed you?
Later was about to go home when sueanne and amanda kept calling me asking me to buy chocolate...parted with 2 bucks to buy one after tat had nt much money liao...only like 70 cents thanks to tsz hin buying the chocolate from me? counted all my 5-cent coins...pro eh?? anyway i still cannot forget the block XD...first time i managed to do that usually most ppl in the match would just push the ball over.....thanks to the sec 2 girls for cheering our class though...really boosted our morale...hahas...felt really happy with the team and with what the seniors had to say to me...they seemed to be happy but i dun like their pushing the blame spirit... they should not have blamed it on him it wasn't his fault either it is nobody's fault or everyone's fault...one for all, all for one right?
Studying geog now...gah never bring geog tb home gotta rely on notes and edulearn...think shouold at least do some target settings for myself
Maths 19/20 yaya i noe i am aiming high but i believe i can do it:)
Geog 12/15 quite high marks for me but i can achieve it if i have determination
Chi 75/100 ya quite low coz i focused the least on that sub so....
Eng 65 percent? coz i dunno the marks scheme and graded marks

Dam super confused now…I told someone whom I really liked first time I ever said ya? The feeling was kinda…mixed…but now I feel bad….only someone will understand and to tat mysterious person thanks for keeping all my secrets these past few months…when I was down, emo, u still stood up for meJ
Sometimes I just wish you and me would even talk? D we even have that chance? Instead of brushing past each other, can’t we just say a hi or something? Thinking back, it was wrong for me to not want to look to you in the eyes but do u noe how I felt? Most propably, u are never going to tag my blog but tat feeling, so indescribable….but gotta study first, as tsz hin is learning from me get the results THEN get the girl:D good luck to mdians we shall thrash cr…Haha

Labels: i find our distance getting closer and yet further...i really wish u could have just tagged my tagboard but i would always be disappointed...