I wished so many things had not happened...they are really starting to fall back on me i cannot bear with this stress any longer... I have to stop myself..why just when i thought i had cleared my thoughts this had to happen?Why do I have to be hit with such a heavy obstacle? Why? I feel like crying already maybe it is all my fault i should not have been told to be with you.......ARGH............I deserve to be like tat.........maybe it was fate? But for now I have learnt, no matter what I do, I can never win your heart...:'(